.....the Search....

2012-01-12T19:46:00.000-08:00

...bismillah.....

A very good article to read!

http://muslimvillage.com/2011/10/27/15806/10-ways-to-avoid-marrying-the-wrong-person/

2012-01-09T19:44:00.000-08:00

...bismilllah....

S.H.U.K.R

.....this post is dedicated to that special someone....

alhamdulillah, for the longest time since I last blog.
this post comes with the widest smile on my face.
O Allah, I could not thank you much for all the things that you have decreed on me.

In less than 2 weeks, my life will change.
Although I am still shock and not believing that it will happen, I am very pleased and happy.

Please make everything easy for us until the end O Allah.
Guide us to your Straight Path and not doing the things that will cause your Wrath on us.

SubhanAllah, indeed it is true that: " No one will ever come close to appreciating and loving you like Allah does."
I hope that you are the result of Allah's love on me. =)
I hope that you are the answer to my du'a all these years.

Thank you Allah azza wa 'ala. Thank you Allah subhanak.

InshaAllah, if anything unexpected would happen in the future, I know I will always have YOU to hear me and LOVE me Allah .....

p/s: to you, thank you for everything, May Allah gives the best for you and us in this world in this world and the next.....

v.a.l.u.e

2011-12-08T04:07:00.001-08:00

...bismllah....

What's important to find in a spouse is that he/she matches your values.So what do u value most in a person whom will live with you for the rest of your life?

Is it his/her looks? What about his/her other characters? I think it all depends on your value?

To me personally my first value will be if he is a person who struggles in this life to please his Lord, Allah 'azza wajall.

Aligning our main goal is very important. That is to strive really hard in getting Jamnat-al-firdauws.

Then, other qualities will follow, inshaAllah.

Allahu 'alam

2011-06-12T22:34:00.000-07:00

....bismillah.....

its raiining, alhamdulillah.
it's a blessing from Allah.
I am making lots of du'a.
when it rains its a good time to make du'a. ask Allah everything.

contentment has been an issue to me.
alhamdulillah,
I thank YOU O Lord of the Worlds for all the blessings you have granted me all these years.
as there is an old saying in malay culture "gajah depan mata tak nampak, semut di seberang laut nampak".
I persitently asking for "one thing" for years now, and it has not been answered.
I gave so many reasons and wisdom to myself for why this du'a is not yet answered.
I sometimes got so depressed, sad, cry, anxious thinking about this "one thing".
SubhanAllah, I tried so much to be contented with the fact that I have to be patient for this du'a to be answered..
Astaghfirullah, I forgot all the blessings that Allah had given me for 29 years of my life!

O self, why can't you see all these goods that had been bestowed upon youand be thankful for it?
O self, why do you have to keep reminding yourself about that "one thing" you've been wanting all these years and be mad that it has not been given to you?
O self, you know that you will not be happy if you keep yourself with the thinking.

O self, quickly repent to Allah azaa wajall.
O self, be thankful with all the blessings that surrounds you.
Maybe that Allah wants you to keep aking.
Maybe Allah has stored something BETTER for you.
Allah is The Most Powerful and The Most Able.
HE subhanak, has 1 millions goods stored for you instead of granting that "one thing" you asked for.
So, BE PATIENT! BE CONTENT! for patience, perservearance and contentment will lead you to happiness in this world and the next.

allah 'alam

2011-05-29T09:00:00.000-07:00

......bismillah.......

mei 29 2011. tengah hari. jejantas terminal pudu raya.
memandangkan tiket bas pulang ke kuantan ialah pada 3.30 ptg, walhal saya sampai di stesen pudu pada pukul 12 tgh hari, saya pun bersiar-siar di sekitar stesen pudu.
kali kedua saya melalui jejantas tersebut, ada seorang pakcik cina yang tua duduk meminta sedekah. hanya memberi sekadar mampu.
kali ketiga saya melalui jejantas tersebut, ada sepasang suami isteri dimana si suami atau pakcik berkopiah mengeluarkan sedikit wang utk bersedekah sambil berkata, "masuk islam la. awak agama apa?"
MashaAllah, betapa kagumnya saya ketika itu. Sememangnya satu approach yg baik utk berdakwah. Sekiranya saya dapat melakukan sedemikian, sekiranya diberi keberanian dan kekuatan utk bertanya kepada peminta sedekah itu.
SubhanAllah, adakah saya mampu?

bintNaim

2011-05-26T09:35:00.000-07:00

p.e.r.c.e.p.t.i.o.n

.....bismillah.....

why the baggy cloth

what others said

hiding beneath those baggy cloth

makes me look fat
what with those black plain abaya
they said

so i say 'black is easy!'...
no attraction of bright colors
loose if no figure fitting
what is there is to look?

people can say all they wanna say,
it is impossible to satisfy them all
might as well I satisfy my Lord, Allah azza wa jall
O Allah, please make me firm on your right path
I do all these for Your sake , and Please be PLEASED with me.

allahu ta'ala 'alam

2011-05-23T23:23:00.000-07:00

bismillah.....

bercerita tentang jodoh.

Majalah SOLUSI 29, baru-baru ini ada memaparkan dua artikel mengenai jodoh.
Alhamdulillah, kalau cerita pasal jodoh ni, memang akan jadi panjang berjela-jela.

sejak akhir-akhir ini, banyak persoalan yg timbul utk diri sendiri.
walaupun sekarang ni macam dah reda je soalan dari orang keliling tanya bab-bab kahwin ni,
diri sendiri tak putus-putus berfikir dan berdoa moga Allah dekatkan, dan mudahkan jodoh ku.
Bila difikir-fikir, rasa macam dah pelbagai usaha ku lakukan, itu ini, san sini.....ABC 123....

Namun, masih belum ada kejayaannya lagi.
Hmm mungkin lebih baik jika aku belum berjodoh dgn sesiapa pun lagi.
Hanya Allah ta'ala yg tahu.

InshaAlah, sentiasa berusaha untuk menjadi orang yang lebih baik, semoga Allah kurniakan jodoh yang terbaik untukku di dunia in dan di akhirat. ~Ameen

رَبَّنَا هَبْ لَنَا مِنْ أَزْوَاجِنَا وَذُرِّيَاتِنَا قُرَّةَ أَعْيُنٍ وَاجْعَلْنَا لِلْمُتـَّقـِيـْنَ إِمَامًا

ROBBANA HAB LANA MIN’ AZWAJINA WA DZURIYYATINA QURROTA A’YUNIN WAJ’ALNA LIL MUTTAQINA LIMAMAN

“ Tuhan kami, karuniakanlah kepada kami dari istri-istri kami dan anak cucu kami yang menyenangkan kami dan jadikanlah kami sebagai ikutan bagi orang-orang yang bertaqwa ”

2011-05-22T08:27:00.000-07:00

bismillah........

O Allah, please help me with this obsession.
Please remove it from my heart.
Is it wrong to be persistent in things that are not certain?

When the desire has taken over the mind.
The judgment became overbiased.
Please help me to think straight O Allah,
Only YOU knows BEST.
Please help me make the decision.
Help me to be more patient!

2011-05-19T07:32:00.000-07:00

BISMILLAH

the best part of A Heart Serene Seminar was The Final Stretch. Shaykh Riad took us to ponder upon the reality of death. The lights was off and he was narrating the stories of death.

My tears and cries were unstoppable. My friend afterwards wondered if I cried too much. What else can bring tears to your eyes if it is not the remembrance of death?

Imagining myself on the bed when the angels of death come, how I wish they will bring good news to me!

The agony o death, sakaratul-mawt, thinking bout it made me shivers.

that's why I cried so much.

O Allah, please give me the good end. Saves me from the punishment in the grave and Hell Fire. ~Ameen

2011-05-19T07:23:00.000-07:00

bismillah

d.e.a.t.h

may 2011, last two weeks, I received news from home that my neighbor died unexpectedly 12 am on the morning. Innalilahi raji'un wainna ila rabbina lamun qalibun.

death, everyone will taste it.
death, kills the pleasures when we think about it.
death will come yet we treat life like we will not be died.

death!!! am i ready to die?
after I die, which baggages will I bring to the Judgment in front of My LORD?
baggages full of sins? or good deeds?

work now for the eternal abode.
my choice is definitely Jannah Al Firdauws

LET'S WORK FOR JANNAH!!!

2010-12-16T02:04:00.000-08:00

No Beats Necessary -MOTHER

I remember the day when my mother passed away
The emptiness inside I cant explain
Now I'm all alone,
Contemplating about the way she use to hold my hand and then shed say
Oh my child you know I love you, theres something that I want to tell you is Allah is there for you to turn to through your prayers

Oh mother, you were there to wipe my tears
All the times I could not face my fears
My mother, Allah knows what you mean to me
All the love you gave last endlessly

Years have passed me by
Mother your not by my side
To see what Allah has blessed me with in my life
Mother your advice, has really helped me in my life
Underneath your feet is where heaven lies
You use to say:
Oh my child you know I love you, dont let the world around you blind you, the Quran and Sunnah will guide you, all the way

Oh mother, you were there to wipe my tears
All the times I could not face my fears
My mother, Allah knows what you mean to me
All the love you gave last endlessly

My mother

Oh my child you know I love you, dont let the world around you blind you, the Quran and Sunnah will guide you, all the way
Oh my child you know I love you, dont let the world around you blind you, the Quran and Sunnah will guide you, all the way
Oh my child you know I love you, dont let the world around you blind you, the Quran and Sunnah will guide you, all the way

**Missing my mum ;(

bintNaim

2010-12-14T19:24:00.000-08:00

Ramadhan 2010

........bismillah.......

Alhamdulillahi rabbil 'alamin. I am so grteful and thankful to Allah 'azza wajall for giving me a chance to meet Ramadhan 2010. InshaAllah, I am making du'a that I will meet you again next year O ramadhan.

2010-12-14T19:23:00.000-08:00

...bismillah.....

wHEn LaZinEss KickS iN.....

make du'a: Allahumma inni a'uzubika minal 'ajzi wal kasal, wa a'uzubika minal hammi wal kasal , wa a'uzubika minal jubni wal bukhl, wa a'u zubika minal ghalabtiddaini wa qahri ar-rijal.

I think the meaning of this supplication is something like this:
'O Allah, I seek refuge with you from care and sorrow, incapacity and laziness, miserliness and cowardice, the burden of debt and being overcome by men.'

O Allah, please help me!

2010-12-14T19:18:00.000-08:00

I am looking at you and you are looking at me, so what are we waiting for?
Come on.. make our moves!

2010-12-13T09:36:00.000-08:00

He Who Has No One Has ALLAH- Sh Navaid Aziz

...bismillah......

SubhanAllah... this is among the best lecture I have ever listened to.
I can't possibly stop my tears as Sh Navaid Aziz told us those beautiful stories of those who seeks HIM.

A very important note, for any hardship we ever face on this earth, if those calamities brings us closer to Allah, indeed those calamities will be the sweetest thing for us! For Allah promised Jannah to those who are patience and come closer to HIM.

Allah never wants to harm us. He Always want good for US.
Allah is ever most merciful GOD, how can we turn back ourselves from HIM?

There are so much great points in the lecture.
Sh Navaid ended the lecture with "He Who Has ALLAH, Has EVERYTHING"

I dedicate this lecture to all muslims out there who has lost all hope in their LIVES. Indeed ALLAH knows your pains and HE wants you to become closer to HIM and gave you that ETERNAL Happpiness. Are you ready to grab the opportunity? This is a call for you an me to come back to HIM. The ONE who LOVES us the MOST.

allahu 'alam

-bintNaim

2010-10-10T00:10:00.001-07:00

10 ways to avoid marrying the wrong person!

http://www.altmuslimah.com/a/b/r/3746

2010-09-27T00:29:00.000-07:00

h.a.t.i

re-posted from multiply pg on : Mar 31, '08 3:40 PM

dengan nama Allah 'azza wajalla....

hati yang macam mana bila susah sikit
sudah merasa sesak
hati yang macam mana bila di kritik sedikit
sudah mahu menangis
hati yang macam mana bila diuji sedikit
sudah mahu berputus asa dengan hidup

hidup, realiti memang menyakitkan
terpulang kepada hati itu untuk mencari ketenangan dalam kesusahan
terpulang kepada hati untuk bersabar

jika sentiasa mengeluh tidak kira sekecil mana pun kesusahan yang menimpa
sudahkah pasti hati itu penuh dengan iman yang teguh?
sudahkah pasti hati itu sudah bersih?
sudahkah pasti hati itu akan diterima oleh Tuhan?

~tepuk dada tanya hati

bintNaim

2010-09-25T09:29:00.000-07:00

Reposted from my multiply page on

Dec 31, '07 5:54 PM

A.k.u

.....bismillah.......

pernah aku terfikir
apakah aku ini layak menjadi ahli syurga?
persoalan ini acapkali mengundang air mata
terasa jauh lagi perjalanan ku untuk mendapat syurga
aku cerminkan diri....
aku mahu syurga!
sudahkah lengkap imanku,amalku,niatku?
semuanya adakah sempurna?
apakah pandangan Allah terhadapku sekarang ini?
Murkakah DIA? Redhakah DIA?

aku selalu bertanya pada diriku....
bagaiman solatku?
dimana quranku?
amalan2 sunatku?
niat ku dalam berbuat ibadah....
  ..adakah aku ikhlas keranaNya?
  ..atau sekadar lagak untuk mendapat nama?
lidahklu hari ini sudahkah ia basah dgn zikrullah?
  ..atau hanya kata2 dusta dan cerca?
tanganku hari ini, sudahkah ia menolong yg memerlukan?
  ..sedikit sedekah mungkin?
mataku hari ini, adakah ia melihat apa yg halal di sisi Allah?
..atau liar memandang kir dan kanan?
dan yg paling penting sekali hatiku ini adakah aku tambahkan lagi titik-titik hitam padanya?
  ..adakah aku berusaha untuk membersihkannya?
hari ini,adakah aku melukai keluargaku?
  ..rakan-rakanku?
  ..atau sesiapa sahaja mahkluk Allah di muka bumi ini?

dan senarai ini akan menjadi lebih banyak dan lebih panjang.........tanpa henti...........

LAYAKKAH AKU UNTUK MASUK SYURGA?????

ketahuilah bahawasanya Allah itu Maha Pemurah, tidak kira berapa banyak dosa yg kita lakukan, Rahmat Allah untuk mengampunkan dosa2 hambanya lebih hebat......

Persoalannya di sini, adakah aku sedar betapa byknya dosa-dosaku?
Adakah aku sedar yang aku perlu sentiasa bertaubat untuk membersihkan dosa-dosaku?
Adakah aku sedar yang aku perlu berusaha untuk menambahkan lagi amalanku supaya hatiku akan dipenuhi kecintaan kepadaNya?
Adakah aku sedar bahawa aku seharusnya tidak boleh merasa berpuas hati dgn amal ibadahku yg sangat sedikit ini?
Adakah aku sedar bahawa pengabdianku kepadaNya tiada sempadan?
Dan aku harus mengejar dan berlumba2 untuk melakukan ibadah keranaNya?
Adakah aku sedar bahawa janjiNya untuk Syurga adalah sehebat dan sebaik2 janji di alam semsta ini?
Adakah aku tidak takut dgn janji NerakaNya?????

BANGUN DAN SEDARLAH WAHAI MANUSIA!!!! JANJI ALLAH ITU BENAR!

sekilas~bintNaim

2010-09-23T23:42:00.000-07:00

b.i.n.g.u.n.g

Reposted from my multiply page on
Feb 11, '08 6:17 PM

...................bismillah...........................

akhir-akhir ini aku selalu didatangi dengan berita-berita yang mengejutkan di dalam hidupku.
malahan berita-berita ini membuat aku merasa bingung untuk berbuat keputusan. bagaimana harus aku menghadapi kejutan-kejutan ini? aku selalu mengharapkan sokongan dan nasihat daripada orang-orang di sekelilingku.

kerana aku sangat takut dalam membuat keputusan. keputusan yang mungkin membawa bahagia atau binasa untuk masa hadapanku. aku bertanya ke kiri dan kanan mencari jawapan yang pasti. apa perlu ku putuskan? kebingunang yang menghantui diri kadang-kadnag mengganggu hidupku seharian.

tetapi sebenarnya tidak kira lah betapa besar keputusan yang harus aku buat, aku sendiri perlu mencari jawapan dalam diriku. dan yang pasti, siapa yang paling baik untuk ku jadikan rakan, sahabat dalam berbuat keputusan ini ialah Allah, tuhanku.

beberapa langkah perlu ku atur dalam berbuat keputusan ini. pertama. mencari tujuan utama dalam hidupku: apa yang aku mahu dalam hidup ini? jawapan itu hanya ku tahu. Aku seolah pasti yang aku mahu kebahagiaan yang abadi itu: syurgaNya. Apa kaitan keputusan ini dgn syurga? Bagiku, jika apa yang aku putuskan ini untuk mendapatkan redhaNya, itu sudah cukup bagiku.

Jadi, aku kini mengatur beberapa pilihan dalam keputusan ku. Dan akan aku usahakan untuk melaksanakan segala pilihan yang telah ku buat. Dan apabila ku pasti, aku telah mencuba sehabis baik, aku hanya mampu berdoa dan bertawakal meminta apa yang terbaik dariNya. Aku juga meminta supaya Dia meletakkan redha dalam hatiku terhadap segala apa yang telah Dia takdirkan. Amin

Kunci bagi segalanya, ialah bersabar. Sabar itu harus hadir ketika ujian menimpa, dan tiada gunanya jika sabar itu datang selepas ujian itu habis. Nah, sekarang ini, aku cuba untuk bersabar dengan segala konflik dan permasalah yang melanda hidupku. Konflik ini datang ketika aku hampir pasti dapat melihat hasil yang aku idamkan. Tetapi nyata, Dia yan menentukan. Setiap apa yang aku rancangkan nampak begitu banyak halangan. Mungkinkah Dia lebih redha jika aku tidak mendapat apa yang aku mahukan? Hanya DIA tahu.

Aku hanya mampu berusaha dan berdoa:

Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim.........

Aku hanya hambamu yang sentiasa keliru,

Keliru dengan jalan hidup yang ada di hadapanku ini

Jadi kau pandulah aku ke jalan Mu,

jalan yang paling Engkau redhai,

jika sesuatu itu memang yang terbaik buatku,

aku pasti Kau akan anugerahkanNya untukku

dan juga Ya Allah,

jadikan aku orang yang sentiasa ikhlas dan berpuas hati dengan apa yang telah Engkau berikan untukku

Jadikan aku hambaMu yang sentiasa mencari redhaMu.

~Ameen

bintNaim

2010-09-23T23:34:00.000-07:00

p.e.l.a.j.a.r.a.n

.....bismillah......

15/02/2008 6:31 PM

allahu akbar.....
subhanallah....
allah al-'azim.....

hati begitu gembira apabila melihat seorang sahabat mendapat hidayahNya

apabila Allah telah membuka hati sahabat untuk mencari cintaNya

semoga Allah memberi kekuatan kepada kami semua untuk mencariNya

~~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~~~~

sedikit pelajaran yang ingin saya kongsikan daripada ceramah Sh Abdulbary Yahya dalam Purification of the Hearts

~Kisah 'Abdullah ibn 'Amr ibn Al'As. Satu hari, Satu hari, Rasulullah s.a.w di dalam masjid berkata, "akan masuk seseorang dari kalangan ahli syurga dalam masjid ini sebentar lagi". Dan masuklah pemuda itu. Hal ini berlaku pada tiga hari dimana ketiga-tiga hari pemuda yang sama akan masuk ke masjid semasa Rasulullah s.a.w mengatakan bahawa dia adalah dari kalangan ahli syurga. Abdullah ibn 'Amr ibn Al'As nak tahu sesangat apa yang telah pemuda ini lakukan sehingga dia menjadi ahli syurga. Jadi, 'Abdullah tinggal bersama pemuda itu selama 3 hari. 'Abdullah memrhatikan setiap ibadah yang pemuda tersebut lakukan, tetapi dia perhatikan semua ibadah yg pemuda itu lakukan sama dengan apa yang 'Abdullah sendii lakukan. Jadi, 'Abdullah berterus terang dengan pemuda itu niat sebenarnya. Lalu pmuda itu menjawab, "Aku ada satu amalan yang aku harap Allah s.w.t akan memberi ganjaran kepadaku sebanyak-banyaknya.Setiap malam sebelum tidur, aku bersihkan hatiku. Aku maafkan semua orang. Aku buang perasaan benci, hasad, cemburu dan dengki dari hati ku."

~orang yang masuk syurga, ialah orang yang bersih hatinya.

~mensucikan hati sangat mudah mengotori hati juga sangat mudah. bayangkan cemburu, dengki,benci itu bagi saya kadang2 tak terkawal oleh diri. ia datang secara otomatik.

bagaiman hendak membuang segala penyakit2 hati ini????

tips dari Sh Abdulbary Yahya:

*tanyakan pada diri : benci pada org ni yg anda mahukan? atau anda mahukan syurga?

berbaloikah buang syurga semata-mata mengikutkan hati marah/benci/cemburu/dengki pada org lain? subhanallah, sesungguhnya syurga itu jauh lebih baik berbanding semua penyakit2 hati ini. maafkan saja mereka.

*letakkan syurga pada sebelah neraca dan segala dunia/benci/cemburu/hasad sebelah neraca. mana yang anda mahu?

GUNAKANLAH HATI DAN AKAL UNTUK MENILAI BERPANDUKAN QURAN DAN SUNNAH!

~allahu ta'ala alam

bintNaim

2010-09-23T23:29:00.000-07:00

k.e.m.e.n.a.n.g.a.n

bismillah....

feb 29, 2008: 6:02 PM

Feb 29, 2008 : Institut Integriti Malaysia. Alhamdulillah, kumpulan kami berjaya menduduki tempat ke-3 dalam pertandingan SATRIA 1 dari 9 kumpulan yang menyertai pertandingan ini yang dianjurkan oleh syarikat kami.Perasaan saya ketika mendapat tmepat ke-3 mmg tidak boleh digambarkan! Sangat menggembirakan kerana sememangnya kemenangan kami langsung tidak disangka-sangka.

Beberapa reflection daripada kejayaan ini:

Subhanallah, kejayaan dunia sudah pun memberikan impak dalam kehidupan saya selama sejak keputusan diumumkan sehingga hari ini. Tidak boleh dibayangkan bagaiamana perasaannya jika benar2 mendapat berita yang sangat-sangat menggembirakan yang ditunggu-tunggu. Apabila di padang mahsyar nanti mendapat buku amalan di tangan kanan! Tapi yang pasti bukan lah semudah itu untuk mendapat amalan di tangan kanan. Banyak lagi yang perlu dilakukan dan diusahakan.

Semoga Allah sentiasa menunjukkan jalan ke arah itu!

~Ameen

2010-09-23T23:16:00.000-07:00

b.e.r.p.u.s.u - p.u.s.u

Feb 29, '08 6:25 PM

dengan nama Allah....

29 feb, 2008

27 feb 2008,8.20am, pagi rabu dalam perjalanan ke Medan MARA dari Sri Petaling menaiki Star LRT. Sungguh sesak train pada waktu ini, kerana semua orang hendak sampai ke pejabat tepat pada waktunya. Sepanjang perjalanan sehingga Masjid jamek, tidak ramai penumpang yang turun dari keretapi.

Dan apabila tiba sahaja di stesyen Masjid Jamek, berpusu-pusu penumpang turun dari keretapi. Sungguh menakjubkan melihat jumlah manusia yang nampaknya sedang berebut-rebut mengejar masa supaya sampai ke pejabat masing-masing tepat pada waktunya. Terlintas di fikiran saya, alangkah indahnya jika pemandangan ini merupakan 'sense of urgency' orang-orang islam dalam mengerjakan solat mereka.

Alangkah indahnya, jika semasa azan dilaungkan, berpusu-pusu pemuda Islam menuju ke masjid untuk menunaikan kewajipan solat. Mungkin keadaan ini berlaku, tapi saya pasti ianya hanya berlaku pada hari Jumaat waktu solat Jumaat.

Saya bukan nak menunding2 jari menyuruh orang lain bergesa-gesa dalam solat mereka. Ini juga adalah peringatan bagi diri sendiri yang tidak lari dari kelalaian dan kealpaan dunia.

Blog ini ditulis berikutan kata-kata ayah saya tentang kekecawaannya mengimamkan jemaah di masjid. Subuh, hanyalah dihadiri oleh kedua-dua imam masjid, katanya zuhur juga mengharapkan musafir yang singgah mengerjakan solat sebagai jemaah. Jika tidak, ayahlah yang mengazankan dan ayahlah solat seorang. Hanya maghrib dan ishak sahaja boleh mengharapkan jemaah dari kawasan tersebut. "The same old faces". Kekecawaan ini juga dapat saya rasakan apabila ayah bercerita.

Begitu indahnya masjid yang bermodalkan jutaan ringgit, namun sayang sekali tidak dipenuhkan dan dimanfaatkan.

Pernah seketika saya berfikir, tidak ada jalankah yang boleh dilakukan untuk menarik lebih ramai pemuda-pemuda Islam solat di masjid? Terkadang saya pun menjadi buntu dan alpa dengan permasalahan ini. Berkobar-kobar di dada inginkan perubahan, tetapi aku hanya duduk diam? Terasa salah sendiri bila terlintas di fikiran, ah bukan tanggungjawabku......astaghfirullah al 'azim.

Saya hanya mampu berdoa semoga Allah s.w.t memberikan kekuatan kepada diri saya sendiri dalam memperjuangkan hak-hak Allah s.w.t ini. Begitu juga doa saya ini untuk sekelian umat Islam di merata bumi terutamanya anak-anak bangsaku Malaysia, semoga bangkit semula dengan Islam di dada dan amalan yang benar. Semoga Allah s.w.t.memberi hidayah dan petunjuk kepada semua umat manusia.

~allahu 'alam

bintNaim

2010-09-23T23:13:00.000-07:00

One of many Torch Bearer's point

Oct 29, '08 1:26 AM

bismillah.......

on the first day of the class, I remember a very interesting point that Sh Waleed taught us in the class. As he thought this is something very meaningful, I feel the same about it too.

I don't quite remember how he come to this point, but it is related to trust.

Say for example if A has a gold and A wants someone to keep it for him. Who would A choose to take charge of the responsibility? Definitely the person who A trusts the most right?

And if B is the chosen person. B must be a trustworthy person in A's perspective. Not all of A's friend have the honor to be in B's position.

So, if A is an ordinary person, the kind of honor B has, is different if A is in a higher position. If A is a king, can u imagine how much honor B gets to be a trusted person of a king?

Now, imagine this, as a Muslim. Allah has chosen us with Islam. That means Allah has put His trust on us. To carry the responsibility of a Muslim! SubhanAllah...... to be chosen by Allah, Lord of The Worlds! As Sh Waleed said in class,"This is really something.....", when he paused, it was like he was trying to say something that cannot be expressed by words! MashaAllah!

To me, alhamdulillah I am so honored and thankful to Allah that He showers me with His Mercy of this Faith. Alhamdulillah, I am a Muslim. And I pray to Allah much that He will always Guide me and all the muslims around the globe to His Straight Path.

And I know that carrying the banner of Islam as a Muslim is not easy. I seek His help to give me the power to continue seeking knowledge of the deen and to help me increase sincerity in my ibadah so I can be a better muslim everyday inshaAllah.

~Allahu ta'ala 'alam....

to be continued......

2010-08-02T08:53:00.000-07:00

~Ways to Win Allah azza wajall's Love~

Points from a lecture by Sh Muhammad Alshareef,entitled "Does Allah Loves Us?":

From Ibn Qayyim's work:

1. Praying Tahajjud - take advantage of 3rd portion of the night.

2. Constant remembrance of Allah subhanak - "And remember ME, I will remember you"[Quran]

3. Read the qur'an - "A book is sent down mubarak,so that hey will contemplate its verses"[Quran]

4. Be with the people who love Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala
-Choose a good companion - benefit from the righteous and pious companions
-Example of the dogs mentioned in Surah Kahf, why these dogs are mentioned? Because of the
companionship with Men of the Cave, these dogs were raised in status when Allah mentioned them in the Quran

5. We must love to meet Allah
- whoever have this loves, he/she will work hard in doing good deeds and struggle in preventing
oneself from sins in order to meet Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala

6. Push away anytihng that stands between us and Allah and HIS Messenger

7. Put sunnah of Rasulullah sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam in front of us, easily reached by us
-there's no love to Allah if you don't love Rasulullah and its sunnah

8. Make patience as part of our character
-"And Allah loves those who are patient"

9. Learn the Names and its characteristic of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala
- when we read quran and came across any names of Allah, like Ar-Rahman we can contemplate the meaning and apply it in our lives

10. Continue in doing our nawafil (voluntary) deeds:
-Allah said: "The slaves will continue to come close to me in voluntary deeds untill I love him."[ Hadith Qudsi]

2010-07-03T09:25:00.000-07:00

....bismillah....

.Missing "her".

"Allahummaghfirlana zunubana waliwalidayya warhamhuma kama rabbayani sagheera"

30th July 2007, 11.30pm District Hospital. The nurse called us after 15 minutes she told me to wait outside the ward. We knew what to expect when we saw the doctor waiting for us inside the ward. He told us that she just had her last breath a few minutes ago and they had tried their best to save her.

I was the last person to see her at her last moments, and those moments are still vivid when I recalled them each time I remember her. It was around 10.30pm when I came and I wanted to read some Quran because I could see the sign that it might be her last moments. But, the nurses told me to go out because they wanted to clean her. Then, I kissed her on her forehead hoping that Allah will make it easy on her with her last moment.

Now after three years Allah 'azza wajall had taken her, alhamdulillah I still miss her =). I still want to hug her so tight that I will never let her go. I still want to kiss her on her forehead and cheeks. I still want to talk and chat with her like all other girls do. I still want to buy her stuffs she would wish for. I still want to do all I can for her.

I am content with the life without her now. Only at times, I cannot help myself but to remember my times with her and wished to turn back time. I cannot stop those tears each time. O Allah, please forgive me if I ever cross the limit of missing her. No matter how much I miss her now, all I can do now is make a lot of dua for her. Biiznillah, I always do. I always try to be a better muslimah, cause only the du'a of a righteous child will be accepted.

O Allah, please light the grave of my mother. Please make it easy for her in barzakh. Please gather her with your righteous slaves. Please unite us again in Jannah. ~Allahumma Ameen.

I guess as long as I live, I will never forget her. BECAUSE SHE IS MY MOTHER!

"Ma, I will always love you and miss you."

Dedicated to my late Mom, Salamah Katamon. May she rest in Peace with her Lord, May HE make her among HIS righteous slaves. Ameen.

~bintNaim

2010-06-13T08:15:00.000-07:00

w.O.r.L.d

v.I.e.w

bismillah...

I was listening to IKIM.FM this evening. It was playing parenting slot by Sis Azra Banu from Little Khalifah and MPF. She was talking about world view.

Some Points of Benefits:

As parents, it is very important that we teach our children the correct world view a.k.a what is right and wrong. Know that we live in this life and whatever we do in this life will determine our success or failure in the next life. Simply if you understand that we live to follow Allah azza wajall and Rasulullah s.a.w's way a.ka. Islam, inshaAllah we'll be successful as Allah has promised in the quran that Paradise will be the eternal abode for the believers. Otherwise if you choose not to believe in Allah 'azza wajall and HIS Rasul s.a.w, Hell Fire is the end, hence failure in the next life.

It is Allah who creates values and we human has to follow it. Allah 'azza wajall has set up rules in this world that we as HIS slaves must follow. We want to teach our children that if anyone come to them and do things against Allah's rule know that these people have to face the consequences of going against Allah's Law. The correct world view will lead a person to the correct actions.

She said, that most children love to do good, but most of the time they hide their good deeds. Why? Because in our world today, those who do good will be mocked at. Example, if a child submits his homework early, their friends will label him as a nerd etc. Hence, we must prepare the children with a reasonable and logical reasons to their good actions so when people turn them down when they do good, they'll know how to react.

Today a lot of people have the knowledge especially Islamic knowledge of what is right and what is wrong. We learnt all these at home, school etc like how to pray etc. These knowledge will be useless if we did not put them into practice. No matter how much Islamic Knowledge we have, if we did not practice them those knowledge is not a useful knowledge until you do it! For example, if you say you know how to pray, fast and the correct way to worship Allah, but you didn't do it. How would you be successful in your life?

Note:I really like the last point about knowledge. It is indeed a reminder for myself about all the things I have learned throughout my life. Some of them I took for granted and some I put into practice. InshaAllah, I am trying my best to practice every knowledge that I have learned. InshaAllah lets be successful in this world and the next!

~allahu ta'ala 'alam

bintNaim

2010-06-08T00:43:00.000-07:00

a call to repentance

bismillah...

the past month, we were saddened by the horrible stories of natural disasters taking many lives. the bad things happening around us must happened for a reason.

maybe the earthquakes is a sign for us to repent to Allah 'azza wajall. maybe all these years we had forgotten to make sujood to Allah 'azza wajall and maybe all these times we were showered with wealth and happiness that we forgot to thank Allah for all the blessings.

and then, the stories of earthquakes that had taken many lives were played on the news makes us sad and sympathize to those victims. sympathize yourself before you sympathize them. cause on the day of judgment u will be so busy with yourself that u don't recognize even your own brother! i think this is a wake up call for us. it is a reminder to us that death is approaching us. death is coming near to us. we might die anytime like the earthquake victims. they didn't expect to die in the earthquake, do they? what about us? have we repented?

O Allah, please forgive all our sins! ~ameen

bintNaim

2010-06-08T00:34:00.000-07:00

bismillah...

??? q.u.e.s.t.i.o.n.s ????

life is full of questions.
as you go through life, you think you've answered all those questions of life.
yet thousands questions keep coming back to you.

no matter how many questions will appear to your life.
i know for sure there is one answer that will guide me through the reasons and query of all other questions.
know that my primary purpose of life is to serve Allah, making sure that Allah will be please with me in every act I do.
And know that my desired final destination is JannatulFirdaus.
InshaAllah, if I am guided by these goals, I hope Allah will accept all my acts/decisions and rewards them.

I am human and I err.
Know that Allah is The Most forgiving!
No matter how much you sin. Never despair of Allah's forgiveness!
Keep renewing your shahadah.
Repentance is an everyday task!

~Allahu ta'ala 'alam

bintNaim

2010-04-04T00:28:00.000-07:00

bismillah...

source : e-mail

Oh my self... (nafs)

Oh my self what will calm you?
Can’t you remain patient for a day or two?
I try to contain you but your strength overpowers,
But when we die life will seem like hours.
So can’t you be patient for part of a day?
And remain steadfast upon the straight way?
The direction you’re taking leads to my worst fears,
Of the day we stand for fifty thousand years.
No one will joke nor talk nor smile,
And the sun from our heads will be at a mile.
Nowhere to hide and nowhere to flee,
Standing for what seems an eternity.
Then the judgment begins and the books will land,
Either on your right or your left hand.

Oh my self …
Do not become like those who left the right track,
And put their left hands behind their back.
Oh self, how do you plan to cross the sirat suspended in the air?
Craftier than a fox, sharper than a sword and thinner than a hair?
How do you plan to cross? Or will you cross at all?
The blink of an eye? Run? Or would you rather crawl?

The bad deeds you command will drop you from it,
And only good deeds put you back upon it.
Oh self, it’s a five hundred year-drop suspension,
Over a terrible place I’d rather not mention.

Oh self…
Do not be fooled by this world and its illusions,
And keep in mind judgment, the grave and other conclusions.
Oh self, wake up! Don’t follow your desire!
And ask for forgiveness to avoid the fire!

Oh self, keep the commands and avoid prohibitions,
And pay close attention to these admonitions.
Be amongst those who were the best of planners,
Who prepared for the future with good deeds and good manners.
Oh self it simply about your control,
Being patient now so as to reach your goal.

I don’t mean to put a burden, or put much stress,
Just to warn of a day when the limbs confess.
Sins add up as you live through the years,
Then sadness won’t save you and nor will the tears.
Every time you sin the Shaytan is winning
So remember the One against Whom you’re sinning.

Oh my self…
Life is short and ends when you least expect it,
And then what will you say when you’re resurrected?
The angel of death overlooked you and took the souls of your brothers,
And one day he’ll come to you and overlook others.
For great rewards plant the righteous seeds,
Oh Allah, I seek refuge from the evil of my self and from the evil of my deeds.

2010-03-17T19:27:00.000-07:00

bismillah....

a good article.. inshaAllah, hope this will give us the spirit to work for Islam.
Got it from IslamQA.

link: http://www.islam-qa.com/en/cat/144/ref/islamqa/22154

Q:I want to serve my religion, what should I do?

A:Praise be to Allaah.

1 – You can serve Islam by having a correct resolve and sincere intention, for Allaah blesses an action that is done sincerely for His sake alone, even if it is little. Sincere devotion, if it becomes a constant feature of acts of worship and obedience, even if they are small or simple in the sight of the one who does them, makes them great in the sight of Allaah, so Allaah will forgive him for major sins because of that, as it says in the hadeeth about the piece of paper on which is written La ilaaha ill-Allaah.

2 – You can serve Islam by knowing the right way and following it. The Straight Path means following the way of our Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) with regard to the principles, ways and means of da’wah and being patient in adhering to that, whilst treating people with kindness and compassion, because they are suffering from the disease of sin.

3 – You can serve Islam by making the most of all available means and circumstances. This is a great blessing, for all means are permissible except those which have been forbidden by Allaah. So we call people to Allaah by all means prescribed in sharee’ah, whilst paying attention to the evidence of sharee’ah and correct etiquette.

4 – You can serve Islam by giving precedence to that which is in the interests of Islam over your own whims and desires. Serving this religion means giving what is most precious of your money, effort, time, thought, etc. Have you not seen those who love sport (football or soccer) for example, how they devote their efforts, time and money to their beloved sport? But more is expected of you than that.

5 – You can serve Islam by following in the footsteps of the scholars, daa’iyahs and reformers, having patience as your companion and putting up with tiredness and exhaustion. For you are doing a great act of worship which is the mission of the Prophets and Messengers and those who follow in their footsteps.

6 – You can serve Islam by shunning laziness, weakness and apathy, for this religion is the religion of resolve, ambition and courage, and its call is only harmed by laziness or reckless ignorance.

7 – You can serve Islam by connecting your heart to Allaah and reciting a lot of du’aa’ and prayers for forgiveness, and persisting in reading Qur’aan. There is nothing that is more effective in cleansing the heart and refreshing the soul, and making it active and energetic so that it will not get tired or bored, than remembering Allaah much and drawing nearer to Him by means of obeying Him and doing naafil (supererogatory) acts of worship.

8 – You can serve Islam by forming bonds with scholars who practise what they preach, those who are known to be sincere and who are well established in jihad and supporting this religion. Marching under their banner and following their lead is very good and beneficial.

9 – You can serve Islam by organizing your time on a daily, weekly and monthly basis. There are actions which should be done every day, others which should be done every week, and others which should be done every month or every year.

For example, you should make da’wah to those whom you see every day and to those whom you see once a week. You may have a family gathering once a month, and there may be annual conferences, or journeys for Hajj or ‘Umrah once a year, and so on.

10 – You can serve Islam by paying it some attention and giving it some of your time, thoughts and money, and making it your main concern. So when you stand up, it is for Islam; when you walk, it is for Islam; when you think, it is for Islam; when you give, it is for Islam; when you sit, it is for Islam.

11 – you can serve Islam by hastening to contribute every time you find an opportunity to do good. Do not hesitate or delay or put it off.

From Kayfa akhdim al-Islam by ‘Abd al-Malik al-Qaasim, p. 18.

2010-03-01T01:01:00.000-08:00

b.a.r.u

tempat baru, environment baru, muka baru, kawan baru.
terasa susah untuk menerima pembaharuan ini.
ada pembaharuan dalam hidup yg kita alu-alukan
ada juga yang kita paksa untuk terima

mahu tidak mahu, aku mesti akur dengan pilihan sendiri.
inshaAllah, mencari kekuatan untuk menghadapi pembaharuan ini.
siapa tahu mungkin di sinilah yang terbaik untuk aku.
sedang mencuba mencari keikhlasan untuk menerima pembaharuan ini.

just wait and see....

allahu'alam

2009-10-06T17:48:00.001-07:00

.determination.

bismillah......

a year had gone so fast. today is going to be my last day on B-land. alhamdulillah, the moment i have been waiting for so long has come. the return to M-land, my home.

last year, when i decided to pursue my study in B-land, it was all quick and sudden decision. with a little bit of confident that i thought that my life ahead will be better, i leave it all to Allah.

alhamdulillah, although one year seems like a day in B-land, there are so many things in B-land that will forever be my good memories.

my journeys to QShams in London, QFawz in Birmingham and QMass in Bradford are so precious like pearls hidden under the sea. the friendships that i got with the BK girls were so beautiful that i wish i will never leave B-land.

my struggles with studies although i wished i would study harder, has taught me so much in life. a new ambition, a new career path maybe.

relationship with my younger sister has never been better, now that we lived under one roof for a year. through all good and bad times!

My year in B-land had me questioned myself about veiling. Seeing 2 of BK girls who took up the decision of veiling in front of my eyes is just an amazing event to me.

Alhamdulillah, a lot of thanks to Allah who had allowed me to live in B-land even if its only a year.

Today, the mixed feeling of leaving B-land and coming bank to M-land has overwhelmed me too much. with heavy heart and steps i pack up all my things and go to heathrow.

I hope very much to come back to B-land to meet BK girls that I would miss so much!

Alhamduliilah, thank you Allah subhanahu wata'la.

Goodbye B-land, biiznillah til we meet again!

2009-09-07T15:52:00.001-07:00

bismillah......

G.R.E.E.D

Sometimes I feel like I am so greed

Wanting this and that not realizing all the blessings that Allah azza wajall had given me.

Asking for the dunya when I know it is better to ask for forgiveness, the akhira

Du'a - sometimes I give up when I know I should not

O Allah give us the best in this world and the next.
O Allah enter us to Your Jannat-al-firdaus
O Allah saves us from Hell Fire
O Allah gives us ikhlas in performing all ibadah
O Allah gives us a good end
O Allah gives us a content heart
A heart full of taqwa
A heart that is clean from all the diseases
A heart that longs for You! Longs to see Your Face
A heart that longs to meet Rasulullah sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam

Ameen Ya rabba al 'alamin

2009-08-27T19:05:00.000-07:00

bismillah.....

Ramadhan is here. What have I done to face the blessful ramadhan.

It's time to race to do good.
The gates of Jahnnam is close!
And the gates of Jannah is open!

Alhamdulillah with His will I am able to fast this year.
I am given free time this ramadhan.

Wake up from somber!
Have I done enough?
Still struggling!

Still hoping and praying to meet laylat-al-qadr!

O Allah....
give me sincere intentions this ramdhan
all the worship I done Only for Your Sake!
all the worship that I done, please ward off the laziness from me!

Please forgive me for You Are the Only One who can forgive!

2009-07-28T07:58:00.000-07:00

Breach of Covenant~Bradford,UK

bismillah......

Alhamdulillah, the past two weekends were the most amazing weekends full of knowledge and warm love from QMass!

I cannot testify more with the hospitality from the beautiful,amazing sisters of QMAss. Not forgetting my journey buddies, BK girls.

The class,eventhough it may sound repeated from the CD, recorded by the teacher himself. Indeed the experience in class was more than words can say. I was drunken by th amount of knowledge that had been delivered for these five days. Juz 'amma is definitely and important reminder for us, for it contents are mainly about hell-fire and paradise with some touch of aqeedah.

Like the Sheikh said, how great is Allah, HE knows that these surah will be recited most since they are short. Thus, HE gives us a stern message through these repeated surahs such as al-asr!

in summary for tafseer surah al-asr. Allah 'azza wajall is telling us that human by default are in lost if they did not do 4 things:1)eman, 2)amal soleh 3)folloe the truth(haqq,Islam) 4)sabr. allahu 'alam.

InshaAllah, I am planning to emorize these short surahs with it's meaning and tafseer by heart, so it will be a constant reminders to me in my salah.

~allahu'alam.

2009-07-12T05:36:00.001-07:00

Music for Life? (edited and re-posted)
...bismillah.....

My story with MUSIC!

Prior to 2004, those people who knew me would always refer to me if they heard a song and wanted to know of the details of the songs. I was like the walking dictionary of all the pop songs played on the radio. I was doing it because I love music so much that I sleep with earphones on my ears, listening to songs to lullaby me to sleep. I would have my CD player everywhere I go, to play all these haram songs. Also, it made me feel so cool to know all these songs. Silly as it sounds; I even memorized most of the songs and cried over the lyrics. (Duh!)

During my junior year at university, everything changed. I started to realize that these are haram music. Though it was hard to stop, alhamdulillah I managed to do it slowly. It needs a lot of guts to get rid something that had been your lifestyle, your HABIT!
InshaAllah, this is my step-by-step tips on leaving music.

1) FIND THE STRENGTH AND WILL TO STOP!
As for me, that the strength that was given by Allah ‘azza wa jall to me for all this, started from the day I knew Al-Maghrib. (I think it started from listening to Imam Muhammad Alshareef's WHEN WOLVES BECOME SHEPHERD) It was not only Al-Maghrib, but also supports from those circle of friends who never stop to be in the loop of Islam.

Nevertheless, mainly it is YOU YOURSELF whom needs to be strong to go against the will of listening to this haram music. You, yourself have to REALIZE that YOU HAVE TO STOP! Find 1001 reasons why you must stop. Alhamdulillah, with myself it was the turning point in my life where I knew that I have to change to be better in the sight of Allah! I want the best place in Jannah, hence this is where I should start!

2) THROW AWAY EVERYTHING THAT CAN BRING YOU CLOSER TO MUSIC! EVERYTIHNG!
My first step when I decided to stop listening to this haram music is to get rid of all songs stored in my PC. The next step was I sold all my CDs to a CD warehouse. Anything that could possibly lead me to music, I did throw it. Not leaving any trace of it. DO NOT leave any room for compromise!

3) FIND ALTERNATIVES!
i- Nasheed
I need alternative to feed my needs that were so used to the music. We do have other options such as the nasheed: English, arabic or malay available anywhere.

ii – Islamic Lecture
Apart from the nasheeds, I tried some lectures too. Before, I thought lectures were very boring. I would fall asleep or yawn a few minutes after listening to these lectures. It took me some times to actually benefit from these lectures. Start with short lectures and alternate with nasheed if you want. My advice is; if you find any particular speaker you like, find all their talk and listen to them over and over again. As you try to progress with the talk, later on you will love and admire other scholars. Plus, you Insha’Allah will benefit by increasing your knowledge of the deen.

iii –Quran
There are hundreds of recitors you can find in the web. My personal favourite is Sh Mishary Al-Afasy. Start with Juz ‘Amma because with these surahs , you can recite along with the recitor as you listen. Insha’Allah, once you get use to listen to the Quran, there is no other songs in the world that can beat the Quran. It is indeed, the most beautiful thing to the ears and the heart. =)

4) MAKE DU’A. MAKE A LOT OF DU’A.
Why did I list du’a as my fifth step? Alhadulillah, after all the initial efforts you have made, indeed you have to ask Allah to give you strength to be persistent in keeping off the habit of listening to music. Ask Allah to give you strength and patience!
5) BE PERSISTENT! BUT...WHAT DO I DO IF I SLIP?
It’s not an easy journey to stop! SubhanAllah, I slipped so many times during my first two years of trying to stop listening to music. As long as you know it is wrong, and you tell yourself to stop, Alhamdulillah you know that Allah has helped you with it. Go back to step 4; du’a and prayers!
6) CHERISH YOURSELF WITH THE BENEFIT OF NOT LISTENING TO MUSIC
The reason why I chose to stop listening to this music is because I think I wanted to find a peace of the heart. Alhamdulillah, after listening to what is within the limits; I can feel the difference in my ibadah. No more rhythm of the pop song would play in my head during my salah. I guess, this is one of the way shaytaan could mislead us in our ibadah. Without music in my life,it help me concentrate more in salah.
The whole point is, alhamdulillah after 6 years now stopped listening to the music, I had better choice in other things I can listen to. Now, the islamic lectures do not bore me. The nasheed become so close to me. The quran recitation is the only thing that soothes me more than anything else in this world. And I realize that Quran recitation even though I can't understand much the meaning of the verses, intrigue me. And the feeling of learning the quran grew wild within me. Indeed, it is Allah's Mercy that He opened my heart to His Qalam~the Quran.

I pray to Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala to grant us His Guidance, Patience and Strength! Ameen.......

~bintNaim

2009-07-09T02:34:00.001-07:00

The Judgment Day....

bismillah....

alhamdulillah, today I had to stand up in front of 30 people being evaluated and videoed for my MSc project proposal presentation. Alhamdulillah, I did it within 15 minutes and only one question asked. Then, that can only means two things; either they totally understand or they totally clueless of my presentation. Im guessing they are clueless. =P

But, that is not my point though. I was totally calm 30 minutes before the presentation, then when more people entered the room to watch me presenting, I became sooooo nervous. Then, something came to my mind.

Imagine, if you have to stand up in front of Allah? How would I feel? SubhanAllah...... the nervousness I felt seconds ago was killed by the thought of standing before Allah. That would be terrrifying! The Day where all humankind will be gathered for Judgment! The Day that was reallyyyy long and everyone is naked. Imagine the sun is just an inch away on top of your head.

I thought this is just a reminder to myelf and everyone, no matter how many people that we have to stand before today, there will come a day when we all will be standing before The Almighty God for The Judgment of Our Life in The Dunya. Be Scared! Be Very Scared of Allah's Punishment! Live in this world with Eman and Taqwa. Submit to Allah and Allah Only julla jullaluhu and follow the Quran and Sunnah.

O Allah, make me one of those Under Your Shade. I ask Your Mercy that you make it easy my judgment. Ameen ya rabbal 'alameen.

2009-07-08T09:15:00.001-07:00

I want to get married BUT.....

bismillah...

I just read a thread about this topic in AlMaghrib forum, I got so interested in reading what others might think about getting married. As for me, this issue has long been delayed.

I thought that I am ready for marriage two years ago. I thought that I have been looking since four years ago. So, many thoughts playing in my mind.

I don't know if I have any excuse for not being married really. My excuses will be, I have not met any potential spouse, not yet as of the time I am writing this blog.

Then the question will arise, I am not looking for one then? Hmm....this is not very easy to answer. I think I have asked around, my father, my neighbor, my friends etc. I thought that I have established the fact that I am single and looking. Maybe my network is not big enough to reach the potentials. Allahu ta'ala 'alam.

At times, I feel like giving up on trying. But then, a lot of people tell me not to stop asking Allah making du'a and waking up for tahajjud. Only with the du'a and prayers do I keep myself off from worrying that I will never be married.

Alhamdulillah, at times I try to be very content with this qadr that HE has not married me for a reason. Everything happens for a reason right? And the reason is.... HE KNOWS BEST.

SubhanAllah, indeed this is the fitrah that Allah has put in every human. That if you are not married, it is from the nature of a person that he/she will not be happy about it. And everytime people diss me because I am old enough to be single, I can only turn to my Lord, asking HIM to help me coping with this.

~Allahu ta'ala 'alam.

2009-07-08T08:10:00.000-07:00

~The Shepherd's Path

The last two weekends had been the most beautiful journey in my life. I attended the seerah class offered by the Almagrib Institute's Shayk Abdulbary Yahya.

SubhanAllah, MashaAllah, Alhamdulillah! It was an intense summarised version of The Beloved Prophet Muhammad sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam. Although, some might say, I know the seerah, why should I take thisd class? After finishing the class, I realized there are so much details in the seerah of Rasulullah sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam I did not know.With the seerah, all I know that Abu Jahal and Abu Lahab wee the two most hatred enemies of Islam. I really did not know much about the other enemies of Rasulullah sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam that is the Jew tribes in Madinah and the munafiqoon who were led by Abdullah ibnu 'Ubay ibn Salul!

I am so thankful to Allah 'azza wa jall that by HIS will I was able to sit for this 5 day intensive course, because the Shaykh not only he did an excellent job on the story telling but also the lessons he extracted from the stories are very useful to every. SubhanAllah, I cannot stress more on the impotance of learning seerah because from the seerah of Rasulullah sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam do we learn how to convey the message and we will realise the greatness of Rasulullah sallallahu a'alihi wasallam as The Last Messenger of Allah on tis earth.

Alhamdulillah...... it is with learning the seerah do my love to Rasulullah sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam increase. Every time I remembered that he had died sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam, my tears just come out thinking indeed this is the greatest calamity that had befallen ummah.

O Allah, please gather us with The Prophet sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam in Jannah! O Allah, please make us all (muslim) the neighbors of Rasulullah sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam in Jannah. O Allah, please help us muslims to continue FOLLOW,SPREAD and DEFEND what Rasulullah sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam had left us with;The Quran and Sunnah!

~Ameen

2009-07-08T07:57:00.000-07:00

bismillah.......

One thing I am so grateful of ever in my life is the eman. Alhamdulillahi rabbil 'alamin, thanks and All Praise is due to Allah, Lord of The Worlds! SubhanAllah, living in a kuffar land, it's really break my heart to see there a lot of human on this earth whom did not worship Allah!

So, true. Allah is The Most Patient! More than 1/2 of populations of the world are not muslims. Seeing these people wander in this world without recognizing their Lord, One and Only Allah, I am indeed feel obliged to give them The Message. The message that I as a muslim inherited from my Beloved Prophet Muhammad sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam that is to spread Islam.

The truth, the only truth that One's will not be save from Hell Fire if One Does not Dies on Lailahaillallah! No matter how much I have in me to tell them that, it really saddended me that I can just utter them in my heart and at the back of my mind. I cannot let these words come out!

O Allah, help me, I sooo want them to know/ follow the truth! Yet I am soooo scared to say it to their face! O Allah, I feel sinned that I did not convey the message. O Allah please help me have a fluent speech on delivering Your Message!

Indeed, it is my dream to see all people to see the truth and accept the truth!

O Allah help me! O Allah plesae forgive your sinful slave here for not conveying the message!

Indeed You Are The Most Mighty! Please help me! Ameen.

2008-11-15T16:15:00.000-08:00

In the Name of Allah,

e.v.a.l.u.a.t.e.d

Last friday,I had image processing's lab. In the lab, our work were evaluated. It was my first evaluation eversince I started my MSc last september. I was so nervous. I had class from 10am to 1pm. And the lab was at 2pm lasted for 3 hours until 5 pm. As the clock ticked closer to 1pm, I became more and more nervous.

SubhanAllah, this is a lab evaluation! It got me thinking what about the constant and continuous evaluation that I go through every single second in my life?

Yeah....each human has two evaluators or angels on both of our sides constantly evaluting our deeds! How come I am not constantly prepared and doing my best for these evaluation?

It might be that I does not have enough taqwa in myself. Taqwa - the awareness that Allah swt is always watching. The awareness must always be coupled with the fear of Allah's punishment!

The constant remebrance of Allah julla jullalahu inshaAllah can help in increasing taqwa. Remember!Allah swt is Very Severe in HIS punishment ! Remember death comes unannounced!
Remember that it could be that the Angel of Death is looking at us NOW!

There are two phrases that are beloved to The Most Merciful,light on the tongue, yet heavy on the scale(of rewards) ~Subhanallahi wabihamdih, Subhanallahil 'azim~[Bukhari]

2008-10-30T16:05:00.000-07:00

The Torch Bearer's Journey =)

In the Name of Allah....

All praise is due to Allah, Lord of the Worlds!

When I finally decided to attend Torch Bearer's I had no friends coming with me from Guildford. I would be staying at a sister's place which I had never met. Subhanallah, I left everything in Allah's Hand.

The introduction class with Sh Waleed Basyouni was amazing! Subhanallah...I was so thankful that by HIS will I am ale to sit in the class with 200 other student of knowledge. MashaAllah... when I first enter the lecture hall I was so amazaed by the view. In the second I was thinking.... hmm...Am I in London? It seems more like a Saudi to me. MashaAllah. In the class, there almost 50% niqabees among the sisters. And I say 90% are jilbabees. MashaAllah, tabarakallah alhamdulillah indeed this is Mercy from Allah. I am hoping so much I can make a lot of new friends and at the same time benefit from them. InshaAllah.

On my way back to the place I am supposed to stay on Friday night, a sister who were in the same bus with me invited me to stay at her house, Sis Zahera. Alhamdulillah, she a very good host and I am very glad I make a Bengouli friend! The next day, I met with her groups of friends. They are such a lovely bunch! Beautiful, energetic, dedicated young girls!Shazna, Farzhana, Zulfa, Rahima. MashaAllah how I adore them and may Allah rewards them much with the hospitability they have given me throughout the class.

Indeed, I can feel that our love are purely for the sake of Allah 'azza wajall.... May Allah make us companions in this world and the next! InshaAllah I am hoping to see a lot of them in the future for our next courses!

~"A man went to visit a brother of his in another village. Allah (subhanahu wa ta`ala) sent an angel to wait for him on the road. When the man came along, the angel asked him, 'Where do you intend to go?' He said, 'I am going to visit a brother of mine who lives in this village.' The angel asked, 'Have you done him any favour (for which you are now seeking repayment)?' He said, 'No. I just love him for the sake of Allah (subhanahu wa ta`ala).' The angel told him, I am a messenger to you from Allah (subhanahu wa ta`ala), sent to tell you that He loves you as you love your brother for His sake."' (Muslim)

2008-10-28T06:26:00.000-07:00

bismillah.......

on the first day of the class, I remember a very interesting point that Sh Waleed taught us in the class. As he thought this is something very meaningful, I feel the same about it too.

I don't quite remember how he come to this point, but it is related to trust.

Say for example if A has a gold and A wants someone to keep it for him. Who would A choose to take charge of the responsibility? Definitely the person who A trusts the most right?

And if B is the chosen person. B must be a trustworthy person in A's perspective. Not all of A's friend have the honor to be in B's position.

So, if A is an ordinary person, the kind of honor B has, is different if A is in a higher position. If A is a king, can u imagine how much honor B gets to be a trusted person of a king?

Now, imagine this, as a Muslim. Allah has chosen us with Islam. That means Allah has put His trust on us. To carry the responsibility of a Muslim! SubhanAllah...... to be chosen by Allah, Lord of The Worlds! As Sh Waleed said in class,"This is really something.....", when he paused, it was like he was trying to say something that cannot be expressed by words! MashaAllah!

To me, alhamdulillah I am so honored and thankful to Allah that He showers me with His Mercy of this Faith. Alhamdulillah, I am a Muslim. And I pray to Allah much that He will always Guide me and all the muslims around the globe to His Straight Path.

And I know that carrying the banner of Islam as a Muslim is not easy. I seek His help to give me the power to continue seeking knowledge of the deen and to increase my sincerity in ibadah so I can be a better muslim everyday inshaAllah.

~Allahu ta'ala 'alam....

to be continued......

2008-06-08T01:04:00.001-07:00

Arriving at The Right Airport, Worshipping Allah the Right Way : Part III

Lecture by Yasir Birjas

iii) In any act of worship, we must ask “Why are we doing this ibadah?”

why do we pray? Because Allah s.w.t said so, I have to submit to HIM!

In worship, there are 2 conditions

§ Do it with ikhlas – FOR THE SAKE OF ALLAH s.w.t

§ Do it by following the Sunnah of Rasulullah s.a.w à do it the right way!

Imam Fudayl ibn ‘Iyyad: [Al-Mulk:1] “What does it mean to have the BEST DEEDS; ikhlas and following sunnah”

iv) What about good intentions, if we do not act according to sunnah?

§ Good intentions do not justify errors

§ Good intentions do not convert falsehood into truth – rewards is in The Hand of Allah ‘azza wajalla. HE only accepts what is according to the sunnah + quran.

Conclusion

· Arriving to the right airport = enjoying our ibadah = feeling the sweetness of ‘ibadah à this will be difficult unless we follow the concept of “iyyaka na’bud wa iyyaka nasta’in”

· Don’t feel burdened by the ibadah

· Hoe to maintain this?

o Jihadun nafs (pleasure of life) = struggle against our own desires, maintain the jihad.

o Abandoning / Avoiding the sinful life major or minor sins

o Seeking halal provision

o Recognize that pleasure is in ibadah

“REMEMBER THAT WE ARE TRAVELLERS AND ONE DAY WE WILL ARRIVE AT OUR FINAL DESTINATION : JANNAH OR JAHANNAM! MAKE SURE THAT WE WILL ARRIVE AT THE RIGHT AIRPORT!”

2008-06-08T01:03:00.002-07:00

Arriving at The Right Airport, Worshipping Allah the Right Way: Part II

Lecture by Yasir Birjas

Points of benefit

1) Live as travellers

· Rasulullah s.a.w to Ibn ‘Umar r.a : Act in this world as a stranger/traveler.

· All humankind are on the same plane with 2 airports: Jannah @ Jahannam

· As a traveler what are our provisions? Cash(dunya) = deeds(akhira) ; map(dunya) = quran + sunnah (akhira)

· Shortcuts (eg:in ibadah ) à misguided à Jahannam

· Judgment Day à long lines à keep valuable in pockets à invaluable in luggage (make us wait longer), so prepare our valuables in pockets only, no luggage

· Being deceived at the last time of our life à good deeds all lifelong, but before died change intentions à Jahannam

· Don’t assume we are doing well but instead we are misled by others to the Jahannam

· Make sure we take the right way before we die

· Review our provisions – Right or Wrong àgood deeds = what are they? Ibadah = everything we do in life à are we doing it correctly?

· We have limited time à we must watch the Quality of our Ibadah!

2) Our Ibadah :

i) Why we recite Al-Fatihah 17 times a day? Explained by Ibn Qayyim = Madarajus Salikin

- Al-Fatihah:4 ; It is YOU we worship, YOU we ask for help

- Quality of our deeds = Sincerety ? Accepted ?

ii) The Concept of Iyyaka na’budu, wa iyyaka nasta’in

a) Iyyaka na’bud :: ibadah, 2 pillars

i) The extreme love of Allah s.w.t

o why we pray/ do ibadah? Is it because of obligation?

o When we have no love to Allah – no feel when doing ibadah, just do it because for the sake of doing it!

ii) Extreme submission to Allah s.w.t

o Do ibadah because to the will of Allah ? do it because we like it?

- claim to love Allah is easy, but the proof? à by doing good deeds and submission

- ACTIONS! Actions we do don’t agree with what we say that WE LOVE ALLAH à We must follow the example of Rasulullah s.a.w eg: No Riba/Interest.

- Ways to Extreme Love & Submission to Allah s.w.t

§ Have the love present in our heart when we worship Allah

§ Love must be felt and we must practice it

§ Not enough to claim, do ibadah in proper way à follow HIS command in doing ibadah

§ Submission to HIS will by following HIS commandments “Nothing better of ibadah and closer to Allah s.w.t except what Allah s.w.t has commanded you to do”

b) Iyyaka Nasta’in = Tawakkul –Reliance & Dependence to Allah :: 2 pillars

i) Have full TRUST in Allah s.w.t ; full trust in all our affairs, dunya and akhira à believe that Allah s.w.t will help us after we have work for it.

ii) Have full DEPENDENCE in Allah s.w.t in everything we get in dunya and akhira but we have to take the means (must have efforts!)

· TRUST & RELIANCE

§ trust but no reliance àeg. akhira yes, but working 16 hours a day to feed the children à trust Allah s.w.t but no reliance that Allah will sustain us better than ourself

§ rely but no trust à eg. rely on Allah s.w.t for our own shahawah à we only ask Allah s.w.t only when we need things!

§ Both trust and reliance are needed! They go together!

2008-06-08T01:03:00.001-07:00

Arriving at The Right Airport, Worshipping Allah the Right Way : Part I

Lecture by Yasir Birjas

Intro:

1) His experience to arrive at the right airport :

Wanted to go to Houston from El-Paso
Tight schedule, he made plan: khutbah > airport > Houston
on the day, after khutbah, the driver take a shortcut to airport, arrived late
enter airport to the counter, long lines, luggage to check in
25 minutes before take off still @ screening area with long lines – Can I make it?
blaming everyone including himself – no need to bring the bags
less than 3-4 min, arrive @ the gate – attendant showed the way – made it to the plane
the plane departed and stopped @ Dallas – ask the guy next to him – “Is this a connecting flight?” “Yes, where are you going?””Houston””This flight is going to Austin!” He was shocked! Am I going to the right flight? The guy said“I’m just kidding!We are going to Houston =P”

2) [Al-Kahf :103-106] Say (O Muhammad s.a.w) “Shall we tell you the greatest losers in respect of (their) deeds. Those whose efforts have been wasted in this life while they thought that they were acquiring good by their deeds. They are those who deny the Ayat of their LORDand the Meeting withHim (in the Hereafter). So Their works are in vain, on the Day of Resurrection, We shall assign no no weight for them. ”.

3) Analogy : Day of Judgment vs Wrong Airport

of all we do in the world, are we going to the right way? Are we doing the ibadah and everything leading us to Jannah?
Why can’t we feel the sweetness of ibadah? àIbadah has become our custom and routine

Objective of the lecture – we must change from inside

1) Identify defects in our ibadah – realize what went wrong

2) Essence of Ibadah – what does it mean

3) Practice ibadah the right way

4) Enjoy sweetness of doing ibadah , not because of routine

5) Arrive on the Judgment Day to paradise @ at the right airport

2008-05-27T02:00:00.000-07:00

f.o.l.l.o.w. t.h.e. s.u.n.na.h

In the Name of Allah........

the other day, when I chat with a friend, I would start with assalamaualaikum, and then my friend said "oh, I forgot....must we say salaam?" then I answer, "I prefer to say salam because this is the way a muslim should be", then I got labeled as 'ustazah'. i told my friend "to live like a Muslim is an ustazah?". the conversation stops there.

My point is, sometimes we as muslim ashamed or too lazy to live life like a Muslim should do. Everything in life had been taught by our beloved prophet s.a.w from the way how to sleep, to eat, to use the toilet etc. I have been trying to follow all these sunnah.

Especially the sunnah which we have to do most of the things with right hand. See, I am a left-handed. most of my tasks are done with my left hand. Holding spoon, opening door...most of the time it is my left-hand. I know it will not be easy for me to change the things that I am used to . These needs discipline! Alhamdulillah....I am now every time that I want to start my step, I will try to follow the sunnah and InshaAllah I hope I will implement this with the dua' that had been taught by our Prophet s.a.w too! InshaAllah....behind all the hard work with trying to follow the sunnah, I hope that I my love to Rasulullah s.a.w will increase! And I hope much for HIS rewards! Ameen

I know there are many other things that we can do to build our love towartds Rasulullah s.a.w like reading his seerah, learning the hadeeth etc. InshaAllah...lets struggle to achieve them!
Love for Rasulullah s.a.w

~Allahu ta'ala 'alim....

2008-05-21T21:26:00.000-07:00

in the name of Allah

t.h.e. d.r.e.a.m

this mornnig before I wake up for fajr prayer, the last thing I remember was when I saw a bed, and a person was dying on that bed. And I myself was getting ready to take over the bed with the feeling that I am going to be the next person to die on that bed. I was so terrified that I immediately wake up from sleep. It was about 5.00 am!

After fajr prayer I kept thinking about the dream. What does it mean? Am I going to die soon?
I keep preparing myself to go to work. In every step I took I become so careful. I drive with extra attention this morning , almost any action that I do, whatever it is, I make sure I avoid any signs of accident.

It is not that I am avoiding death or anything. As a slave of Allah 'azza wajal, I believe that death is certain. It could come anytime. And I hope so much in Allah and I ask Him that when the time comes for me, HE will make me content and happy with the appointed time of the end of my life. As a muslim I hope so much that I will die happily because of the Promise of Allah to meet HIM. Oh, how much I wanted to die in that state! With the last sentence of shahadah! Hoping for Allah's Paradise!

And then the tought of stupor of death(sakaratul-maut) comes to mind! Am I ready to face the stupor of death? Everyday, the angel of death takes the souls of others and overlook me. The time will come when the angel of death will take my soul and overlook others!

As a friend of mine said it could be a warning and reminder from Allah subhanahu wa taala to me. It could be that I am in the state of ignorant of HIM, of HIS Deen that HE wanted to give me that dose of spirit and awareness to wake up from the worldly affair!

I seek protection from Allah julla jullalahu from the evil of myself. And I ask from HIM to give me strength to struggle and increase my faith in perfecting myself as a Mukmin. Ameen

Yet, what have I done to get HIS Paradise? I seek Your forgiveness O my Lord! Paradise is so expensive! How much have I paid to get them?

~allahu ta'ala 'alam

2008-03-03T16:58:00.000-08:00

In The Name of Allah

27/02/2008

s.h.a.r.i.n.g

After our rehearsal for our final presentation tomorrow on SATRIA 1, I stopped by at my friend's place for Maghrib Prayer and to avoid trafiic jam on my way home. The three of us had a chance working together under SATRIA 1 project . So, before the time for Maghrib, we chit chat a lot among ourselves. SubhanAllah, I never knew we could share amazing things among ourselves like old friends do.

By the way, the interesting part of our discussion was when we were talking about khushoo in salah (prayer). I was so thankful that they brought up the topic. It was such a reminder to myself and all of us. All these while, I ignored the fact that khushoo' in Salah is such an important thing in our daily lives.

As we pray 5 times a day, all our lives! How many of it or any of it do we have to defend us in The day of Judgment? I am currently reading a book "Prayer, According to Sunnah" , I came acroos one hadith from Tirmidhi

Abu Hurayrah r.a narrated: Rasulullah s.a.w said: "The first deed for which a man will be called to account for the Day of Resurrection will be his Salah. If it is found to be good, he will safe and successfull;but if it is defective, he will be unfortunate and a loser. If any shortcoming is found in the obligatory Salah, The Glorious and Exalted Lord will call to see whether His slave has offered any voluntary Salah may be made up by it. Then the rest of his actions will be treated in the same manner."

SubhanAllah wa Alhamdulillah, I thanks so much to my friends who brought up the matter, I think indeed finding khushoo' in Salah is a global problem. I believe each and every one of us are working so hard to find the khushoo' in Salah. I am calling myself and others too find and find this khushoo'. Apart from our physical efforts in finding khushoo' such as perfect wudhu', punctuality, etc....... don't forget to ask Allah , The Most Merciful to grant us khushoo' in our Salah, each and everyday.

InshaAllah, I will post up notes from Yaser Birjas's lecture about khushoo' in Salah. Also, some notes from the book I read "Prayer, According to Sunnah"!

~Allahu ta'ala 'Alam

2008-02-20T02:47:00.000-08:00

In The Name of Allah

.w.i.s.h.e.s

20/02/2008

As I live and grow older, my wishes has always been the same like any other human. to do these and to do that, to have these and to have that within the time frame that I wanted it to be. Yet, when some of the things I wanted, I failed to achieve, within the estimated/expected time frame, that is when dissapointment in life happened.

During the dissapointment and depression, I always try to find the answers why does these not happen the way I want it to be?

First Point::
Did not Allah s.w.t answer all prayers of His Slaves? I always listened to lectures and most of it say that Allah s.w.t did grant His Mercy and Blessings to His slaves. And He did answer all their prayers, only we do not know the ways Allah s.w.t grant our prayers. Maybe it will be later in our lives or maybe it is the reverse of what we asked in order to make our life balanced with our current situation. Only He knows and He Knows Best what to give or what to take from any of His slaves. All praise is Only to Allah, Lord of the Worlds!

Second Point::
Sometimes we only make dua' to Allah s.w.t at times when we are in depression. During our happy times, we forget Allah s.w.t. Does this seem fair? Indeed Allah s.w.t is Able to Do All Things, no matter how much we asked of Him, He is free from needs of our supplication or worship. Do you really think that all our effort in worshipping Allah will benefit Him? Nay, indeed we ourselves are of the benefit of our worship. Because Allah s.w.t is free of any Needs. He is The Most Great! Then why don't we persistently doing our responsibilties in Islam which is to worship Him, to convey the Message of Islam, to do good and prevent bad etc? Going back to my point which what should I do to fullfill my wishes? Let's go to point number 3

Third Point::
A friend of mine when I asked her advice on this, she said when ur wishes do not come true at the fixed time u wanted, u must let it go. It is not the time for you to actually worry aobut fullfiling all your wishes. There is one thing more important that just focusing on your needs! It is to fullfill your duty as Allah's slave that is to take care of yourself first. Take good care of your relationship with your LORD, ALLAH s.w.t! I was so thankful that I had somebody to remind me what I had forgotten often. Alhamdulillah! InshaAllah, from now on I will focus on this and work harder to it. InshaAllah if I keep the rights of ALLAH s.w.t as my LORD, HE The Almighty will indeed help me. Ameen

~allahu 'alam

2008-02-15T02:32:00.000-08:00

......BISMILLAH......

15/02/2008

T.H.E H.E.A.R.T

I was listening to Sh Abdulbary Yahya's lecture on Purification of the Heart.
One of the things that intrigues me in the lecture is when he said. We have to forgive people before we go to sleep everyday. We must clean our heart everday before we go to sleep. And he said , "If you are mad at a person, do you want to hate him ore or do you want Jannah more?". This really struck my heart as this reminder was told to me a few months back by a dear friend of mine.

At that time, I was really mad and angry. To relief the pain that I had in my heart, I asked her what should I do with the feeling? Should I be angry with the person or should I just forgive this person? And then, she said this. Subhanallah, when she said this, I was like emmmm.....I have to reconsider the feeling. Then, when I personally listened to the lecture, it gives me more impact on having bad feelings of others.

Alhamdulillah, I already forgive the person long ago, but yet, the phrase "If you are mad at a person, do you want to hate him ore or do you want Jannah more?" inshaAllah will be the moto in my life when I feel bad of others.

Also, reminding me of may be, this could be one of the way to remove 'belacan' from my life. =) By the way belacan in the term we get from ESQ training by Pak Aminul when he was talking about removing the false thinking in life in order to have a 'zero mind'.

Ooooppppsss...my ESQ experience! I was thinking of writing it in here. InshaAllah will soon have a post for a "special ESQ experience"!

enough said, need some actions!!!!

my final say:
FAITH IS NOT ONLY IN YOUR HEART
FAITH IS NOT ONLY IN YOUR WORD
DAITH IS EXEMPLIFIED IN YOUR ACTIONS!!!!

~allahu'alam wa ana la adree.

2008-02-12T00:30:00.000-08:00

S.o.r.E.t.h.r.o.a.t

12/02/2008

I never realized that throat is such an important part of my body until yesterday when I was afflicted with the sorethroat. The pain that I feel is unimaginable, it makes me lost my appetite because everytime I try to swallow things, it is just hurt sooooo bad. I even lost the appetite to talk, cause it will give pressure to my throat. Not even drinking is a pleasure to me now.

No matter how hungry I am this morning, I just could not force myself to eat because of the pain of my throat. I thought that by feeding myself with hot soups and drinks will lessen the pain, nahhh...... eating hot things make my mouth so numb even my teeth is numb.

The pain is still there, even if the doctor had given me some medicine yesterday. I guess, I was wrong that the pills can heal me. Indeed Allah heals all pains in this world. So, I ask you Allah to give me patience in dealing with the pain and I ask you to heal my throat. Ameen

My point is, I myself or maybe others usually do not realized that we are living in the world full of Allah's mercy until we lost the nikmah. For my case, Allah's mercy that He gave me a healthy throat where I can eat anything I want and drink anything I want (halal stuff of course!). I can talk and talk and talk! And I did not realize that all these time what have I done with my throat? Eating lawful means? Talking lawful say?

Now that I have sorethroat, I promise myself not to say those bad things no more, I swear to myself not to drink those ice, those oily stuff that could hurt my throat. etc etc.

I only felt regret when I lost it. So, from now on, I want to live and be happy with what Allah has bestowed upon me. Especially HIS Mercy of giving me to live and born as a Muslim. HIS greatest Mercy of the Faith!

~allahu ta'ala 'alam

bintNaim

2008-02-11T16:41:00.001-08:00

12/02/2008

A.g.e.d

bismillah......

As 2008 come, I realize that I am no longer a young girl who can live on this earth doing anything I want. I am turning 26 this a year. A number that might seem less for some people. But to me, it indicates my life for more than a quarter decade.

Looking back to my previous 25 years, what have I achieved? What have I contributed? As I am writing this, my mind lingers as to what am I really looking for in life. I know death is approaching. When the time comes, I hope I will be ready to meet The One who has always been there for me. My LORD, ALLAH!

I knew the answer readily, that is to live this life struggling and striving to SEEK ALLAH'S PLEASURE! To secure a place in Jannah. But, what have I done to achieve this?Just praying 5 times a day enough? Just fasting in the month of Ramadhan enough? My mind told me, aaahhh...as long as u do what is obligatory upon you, inshaAllah these are enough. But, my heart yearns for more. My heart wants to do more so that it feels like it does contribute something to the Path of Allah.

What do I really want? As I took this path of life, facing the present life and planning for the future. I want to satisfy my desire to be the best in the Sight of Allah. Yet, what have I plan for that? The answer lies within myself. I just have to work harder to find it.

I always dream of having a life that surrounds myself with goodness from my Lord. Surrounds myself with the knowledge of the deen! I want to seek that, knowledge of the deen. It is not that I am not satisfied with what I do now, part of what I do now is to contribute to society with the technology. But rather, I feel much happier if I can teach little kids and young about Islam. Yes, I want to be a teacher. Not just any teacher but a teacher who teach Islam like my father.

I am not getting any younger, I hope Allah will show me something that will make me achieve my dream: contribution to the deen.

~allahu 'alam

2007-12-30T19:42:00.001-08:00

31/12/2007

bismillah

The Letting Go

for the longest time, i have made my decision. i will have to let you go. I think this is it, I am finally accepting the fact what Allah has decree for me for a life such as this. Accepting that which passes me, does not meant to befall me.

Your presence in my life for a short time and then you are gone out of my life. Indeed it is a test and trial from Allah. It might be HE wanted to make me stronger in my future undertakings and I pray that HE will always GUIDE me to HIS Path. That HE will make me among those who have patience and thankfullness to HIM.

No longer will I grief about you, think about you. I am so thankful that Allah has finally make me realise such a waste state I am in thinking about our past so much.
InshaAllah, I pray that both of us will meet with the best in pursuing our goals and future to SEEK HIS PLEASURE and to SEEK HIS JANNAH.

Alhamdulillah......the pain that I had after so long will soon wash away by the letting go.

2007-12-18T16:33:00.000-08:00

......bismillah........

what would one do, if one is in confusion.
i guess i have been so confused lately.
confused with everything that is happening around me.
all the things in my head now are crashing into each other waiting to blow out like a time bomb.
if only i can read people's mind.
then, i guess it will be easy for me to make my decision.
if there such world where everyone is a psyche who can read other people's mind, i think it would be too scary in that kind of world.
indeed this is a test from Allah in order that HIS slaves will be patient and thankful in whatever state there are.
to increase their faith in HIM, supplicating and seek HIM in pain and ease.
i only ask Allah to help me through this =).

allahu ta'ala 'alam

2007-11-19T18:57:00.000-08:00

bismillah.....

TODAY, TOMORROW AND YESTERDAY

everyday when i wake up,
yet another day have past
though i may regret things from tomorrow
alhamdulillah, HE still give me a chance to live another day
so TODAY by HIS will
I will do my best in SEEKING HIS PLEASURE
and stop complaining about yesterday
and repenting for yeterday's misdeeds

cause YESTERDAY will never come back
and I will never be able to change anything of yesterday
and for TOMORROW
I will have to be careful with my wishes for tomoorow
cause ONLY HE knows what will happen tomorrow
or maybe I will not see tomorrow
just prayers so tomorrow will be better than today

in the end, what matters is TODAY
for yesterday had past
and tomorrow may never come
LIVE FOR TODAY because we only have today......

allahu'alam

2007-11-19T01:10:00.001-08:00

Your Aura is Yellow

You're a deeply happy and content person, and you enjoy sharing your cheer with others.
While you may seem like a simple optimist, there is a lot of thinking going on inside you.

The purpose of your life: bringing joy and a better life to others

Famous yellows include: Conan O'Brien, Jenny Mccarthy, Jim Carrey

Careers for you to try: Athlete, Actor, Yoga Instructor

What Color Is Your Aura?

2007-11-19T01:00:00.001-08:00

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.
Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.
Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.
No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.

You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.
Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.
A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.
You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

2007-10-29T23:37:00.000-07:00

Quran, Science & The Last Day
A lecture by Dr Munir

listen to the lecture here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEJDViuV6KM

INTRO
- Religion (Islam) and Science are not two separate entities.
~science that contradicts Islam - we tend to be scared of it.
- Islam is the Source of knowledge , not to prove islam through science but it is the other way around
- Quran = The Source of Knowledge
~first revelation to rasulullah s.a.w is iqra'

JUDGEMENT DAY IN QURAN
- falsehood does not come to quran ~ the truth
- we read ~ we don't know ~ allahu'alam
- judgement day - 6th pillar of eman ~ we must believe in the day of judgement
~rejection to judgement day
- [Albaqarah:2] Certain/assurity of the day of judgement ~ lead us to the final day of our lives
- the exact time of The Hour is only with Allah swt
- Rasulullah s.a.w told us of signs of the Hour ~ he is only the warner of the coming of the day of judgement
- Minor Signs - some scholars said that the signs most of these has passed us
-Major Signs - 5 of them are related to cosmology
1) Sun will rise from the west instead of the east~
From Science Perspective::
*earth rotating around its axis one rotation in 4 hrs (in the beginning),
*now,slowing down to 24 hrs,
*speed of the earth will diminish. Scientist said it is going to slow down until the earth will not be able to increase the rotation with its normal direction,slower slower because of its mass ~ so it will rotate to the other direction = sun will appear from the west! ~ THE DAY OF JUDGMENT!
*Hadith from Hudhayfah Al-Yamam: Rasulullah s.a.w said that when The Hour comes,two consecutive nights will come, people will be terrified, and the sun will not come out, the next day when the sun comes out, it will come out from the west
2) The earth will be engulfed with smokes for 40 days and nights
Quran [Ad-Dhukhan:10] ~when the sky brings forth the smoke
From Science::
60 millions years ago, earth were hit by meteorite, and caused the distinction of dinasour.
scientists predicted that the hit will happened again and they expected it will happen around the year of 2126. They are know exactly where it is going to hit,in the US now they are working very hard building a craft to divert the path of the meteorite.
~could these be the possible of the meteorite that is in the quran. only Allah knows. we leave it to the power of Allah.
3) Splitting of the moon in half
Saheeh Bukhari: During the time of Rasulullah s.a.w, the moon did split in half.
~ need no scientific causes, it is The Power of Allah for the moon to split
Science today says that::
the speed of rotation of the earth + speed of rotation of the moon = a fix entity
so when the earth speed increased, the speed of rotation of the moon will decrease, vice versa.
as the earth slows down,the moon speed up,it is coming closer to the earth, when it is too close to the earth, the gravitational force of the earth will exerts influence on both halves of the moon. At one point, the gravitational force from the earth will cause the halves to split = moon split into halves.
[Al-Qamar:1] The Hour has drawn near,....~ in past tense, why? the linguistic perfection in Quran, that HE told the story of the past(time of Rasulullah saw) to be examples for the future(us).
4) 3 Major Earthquakes!
[Ad-Dzalzalah] Earthquakes in the center, east and west. It could be those in MiddleEast,California,and Japan. ~wallahu'alam

REMINDERS!

2007-10-24T01:46:00.000-07:00

Strengthening the Motive of Reason and Religion
Imam Ibn ul Qayyim al Jawziyyah
An abridged translation of "`Uddat as-sabirin wa dhakhirat ash-shakirin"Translated by Nasiruddin al-Khattab© 1997 Ta-Ha Publishers, UK

http://islaam.com//Article.aspx?id=213

In the battle between reason/religion and whims/desires, we have the following weapons at our disposal:
1. We should remember the glory and greatness of Allah, and feel that He is too great to be sinned against as He is all-seeing and all-hearing. Whoever thinks of the greatness of Allah will never be at ease in committing wrong actions.
2. If we claim to love Allah, then we should not disobey Him, because of that love. A person should be obedient to the One he claims to love. Those who refrain from committing wrong action out of their love for Allah are of the highest status in His sight, as are those who worship Him out of love for Him. There is a great difference between the one who obeys Allah and abstains from wrong action Out of love, and the one who does so out of fear of punishment.
3. We should think of the blessings and favours of Allah, as a decent and noble person would never act against the one who has been treating him kindly- Only base and ignoble people do such a thing. If we think of the blessings and favours of Allah, we will realize that we should not respond by going against His commands and committing wrong action.
4. We should think of the wrath and punishment of Allah, as He will be angry with the person who persists in committing wrong action. Nothing can stand in the way of the consequences of His anger, least of all this weak slave of His.
5. We should think of what the person who commits wrong action has to lose, in this world and the next. It should be sufficient to think of the loss of iman (faith), of which the smallest amount is worth much more than everything in this world. How can anyone be willing to lose his iman in return for some brief
Moment of pleasure the consequences of which might last forever? In a sahih hadith, the Prophet (SAAS) said: "No adulterer is a believer at the time when he is committing adultery." Commenting on this hadith, one of the Sahabah said: "His iman wil be dragged out of him until it goes over his head like a cloud. If he repents, then his iman will return to him."
6. We should relish the idea of defeating the Shaytan and being victorious over him, because overcoming him, and our whims and desires, is a thing of joy and carries a great reward. It is like taking medicine and being rewarded with restoration to good health.
7. We should bear in mind the reward and compensation which Allah has promised to those who control their whims and desires, and abstain from that which is haram.
8. We should think of the special companionship of Allah, as He has told us: "Allah is with those who patiently persevere." (al-Baqarah 2: 153) "For Allah is with those who restrain themselves and those who do good" (an-Nahl 16: 128) "For verily Allah is with those who do right." (al-Ankabut 29: 69)
9. We should be ever mindful of death, which could come upon us at any time, suddenly and without warning
10. We should stop thinking of falsehood and bad ideas. Even if bad thoughts cross our minds, we should not let them stay, otherwise they may become hopes and wishes which we may act upon, and harm ourselves and others in the process.
11. We should gradually strengthen our religious motive in fighting whims and desires. Once we have tasted the joy of defeating those whims and desires, then our determination and willpower will grow stronger.
12. We should direct our thoughts towards contemplation of the signs of Allah which He has encouraged us to think about, whether they are in the Quran or in the universe around us. If such thoughts are constantly in our hearts and minds, this will help us to shun the whispering of the Shaytan. There is no greater loser than the one who, instead of thinking of Allah, His Book, His Prophet and his Sahabah, dwells on Shaytan and the ideas of Shaytan.
13. We should remember how short is our stay on this earth. No-one would want to feel that all he has achieved in this life is the worst kind of deeds, except a person who has no spiritual ambition, whose heart is dead and who is careless. Such a person will ultimately regret his deeds when he realizes that, far from benefiting him, they will lead to punishment. Even the person who has many good deeds to his credit will feel that sense of regret when he realizes that he could have done even more.
14. We should know that Allah has created us to live an eternal life with no death, a life of pride and ease with no humiliation, a life of security with no fear, a life of richness with no poverty, a life of joy with no pain, a life of perfection with no flaws. Allah is testing us in this world with a life that will end in death, a life of pride that is accompanied by humiliation and degradation, a life that is tainted by fear, where joy and ease are mixed with sorrow and pain. So many people are mistakenly seeking an easy life of power and pleasure in this world, but most of them never manage to achieve it, and those who do, enjoy it only for a brief time before it vanishes. The Prophets called people to an eternal life of plenty, and whoever answers their call will have the best life in this world, better than the life of kings and their followers, for zuhd in this life is true richness. This is something which the Shaytan greatly envies the believers.
Merely knowing the facts that we have outlined above is not enough. We have to strive and do our utmost to achieve our aim and attain perfection. The best way to do so is to put a stop to the habits that are controlling our lives, as these are the main obstacles which prevent us from succeeding. We should avoid places of fitnah and temptation, as the Prophet (SAAS) told us,
"Whoever hears of the Dajjal should keep away from him." The best way to protect ourselves from wrong is to keep away from anything that could lead to it. One of the favourite tricks of the Shaytan, which deceives everyone except those who are clever enough to see it, is to show a person some goodness in a wrong thing, and call him to go towards what is good; when the person gets close to it, he falls into the trap.

2007-10-24T00:28:00.000-07:00

..............bismillah..................

" During the funeral of his mother, Al-Haarith Al-Aklee (ra) weeped. When asked for the reason of his tears he said, “Why should I not cry when one of my doors to Paradise has now closed?” "

This reminds me of the time when I whishper to my late mother's ear that I seek her forgiveness for all my sins to her. This reminds me of all the things that I miss to do for my late mother. Now I know how it feels for those children who regrets of what they didn't do fpr their late parents. Now, I can only pray for mother's happiness with her LORD. My advice to those who still have mother,
- take your time to show your love to your mother
- seek forgiveness from your mother
- do not hurt her feelings
- show that you care
- make dua' for her
etc....and the list will go on!

~allahu ta'ala 'alam

2007-10-23T01:02:00.000-07:00

.....bismillah.......

this post is just my thoughts based on my recent life experience. There are a few things that has been playing in my mind and I think it is something that could benefit others if we can carefully think about it and apply it in life.

the death
end of this month is the 3rd month of passing away of my mother. this is my first experience in having to face the trial of death. alhamdulillah, at the time of her death i felt quite calm because most of us in the family were in the state of accepting that it was the best time for mother to go back to her Creator. I could not help my tears when my mom was about to be burried. In my mind at that time was how will mother live in her new world 'the barzakh'. All ALONE!
actually, as it cross my mind that ALL OF US will be there. We will all be in our grave ALONE!! Just how sad I felt for my mother having to be alone in her grave, only the jenaza herself knew what is next for her. I can only pray that Allah will forgive her.
The death is TRUE for all humankind. None of us can escape the fate. Only we do not know when will death come to us. ARE WE READY FOR OUR DEATH? I ask you and myself to ponder deeply about this. What have we packed ourself with to be brought with us in the grave? Remember, it is only our good deeds that will be our friend in the grave. So, make your deed the dearest things to you because these are the only things that will light our grave!

the WALI (HELPER)
no matter how hard life could be, just remember that HE is always there to help you. Recently, I felt like these are the hardest time of my life. I thought that there are no more hopes in my life. I put my hopes to other people around me, those who I trust and love most, and it only worsen my anxiety because most of them didn't meet my expectation (and I never will find it with them). Because most of them turned me down. I was wrong that I turned to them. I forgot that there is ONLY ONE who I can depend on. The ONE who PROVIDEs me with everything in my life. Alhamdulillah.....I just realized it during last ramadhan, and it was the best time to supplicate to HIM. I hope I sincerely seek HIM at that time of difficulty and I hope HE accept me. And I hope HE gives me ease and tranquility cause HE is The Source of Everything. Don't ever forget that HE is THE ONLY WALI for us. Don't put hopes on people.

don't think highly of others because THE MOST HIGH is only Allah. What I mean here is that at times when I meet someone who is in my eyes is the most perfect person in this world, it is really hard for me to actually accept that these people did mistakes. No one in this world is perfect, we are all flawed and limited. Only Allah is LIMITLESS and PERFECT. So, in human to human relationship, I must forgive and forget with other people. Remind each other where there are room for improvements. Maybe there is one thing I know that my friend do not know or it could be that my friend know things that are beyond my knowlege. Share with others so it brings benefit to them.

~Allahu ta'ala 'alam

2007-10-22T02:43:00.000-07:00

Aidilfitri Pertama Tanpanya

Bukanlah sengaja mengingatinya
Mungkin dia sangat bahagia di sana
Syawal pertama tanpamu, kami berasa sedikit janggal
Tiada lagi gelak tawamu
Tiada lagi laungan nama kami seawal subuh untuk mengejutkan kami
Tiada lagi nasihat untuk kami yg kami sangkakan bebelan
Tiada lagi insan yg perlu kami pimpin ketika berjalan
Tiada lagi insan yg selalu kami layan dan manjakan
Kami turuti segala kehendakmu kerana kami sangat sayang kamu
Kerana telah banyak pengorbananmu terhadap kami
Kami sangat bersyukur kerana Allah memberikan kamu sebagai IBU kami
Dan tiada siapa yang boleh menggantikan IBU di hati kami
Ketahuilah IBU, kami sangat menyayangi mu
dan kami redha dengan pemergianmu
Semoga Allah sentiasa merahmati mu dan menempatkanmu bersama orang2 mukmin
Hanya doa yang dapat kami bekalkan.........

Semoga IBU bahagia di sana.....
IBU akan sentiasa berada dalam ingatan kami

2007-09-06T23:38:00.000-07:00

THE LEVELS OF PEOPLE WITH REGARD TO THEIR PRAYER

Ibn al-Qayyim (rahimahuAllah) said, " And mankind, with regard to their performance of prayer are in five levels...

The First: The level of the one who is negligent and wrongs his soul. He is the one who falls short in performing ablution properly, performing the prayer upon its time and within its specified limits, and in fulfilling its essential pillars.

The Second: The one who guards his prayers upon their proper times and within their specified limits, fulfils their essential pillars and performs his ablution with care. However, his striving (in achieving the above) is wasted due to whisperings in his prayer so he is taken away by thoughts and ideas.

The Third: The one who guards his prayers within the specified limits, fulfils their essential pillars and strives with himself to repel the whisperings, thoughts and ideas. He is busy struggling against his enemy (Satan) so that he does not steal from the prayer. On account of this he is engaged in (both) prayer and jihaad (struggling).

The Fourth: The one who stands for the prayer, completes and perfects its due rights, its essential pillars, performs it within its specified limits and his heart becomes engrossed in safeguarding its rights and specified limits, so that nothing is wasted from it. His whole concern is directed towards its establishment, its completion and its perfection, as it should be. His heart is immersed in the prayer and in enslavement to his Lord, the Exalted.

The Fifth: The one who stands for the prayer like the one mentioned above. However, on top of this, he has taken and placed his heart in front of his Lord, the Mighty and Majestic, looking towards Him with his heart with anticipation, (his heart) filled with His love and His might, as if he sees and witnesses Allaah. The whisperings, thoughts and ideas have vanished and the coverings which are between him and his Lord are raised. What is between this person and others with respect to the prayer, is superior and greater than what is between the heavens and the earth. This person is busy with his Lord, the Mighty and Majestic, delighted with Him.
The first type will be punished, the second type will be held to account, the third will have his sins and shortcomings expiated, the fourth will be rewarded and the fifth will be close to his Lord, because he will receive the portion of the one who makes his prayer the delight and pleasure of his eye. Whoever makes his prayer the delight and pleasure of his eye, will have the nearness to his Lord, the Mighty and Majestic, made the delight and pleasure of his eye in the hereafter. He will also be made a pleasure to the eye in this world since whoever makes Allaah the pleasure of his eye in this world, every other eye will become delighted and pleased with him.

[Excerpted from Ibn al-Qayyim’s book al-Wabil al-Sayyib]

2007-07-24T23:15:00.000-07:00

THAT WHICH NO EYES HAS SEEN
Based on Ibn Qayyim’s Nuniyyah
By Tawfiq Choudhury

Introduction

Don’t we want jannah? The beauty of Jannah is unimaginable.

A few names for jannah given by Allah s.w.t
1) Darussalam – a place of the abode of peace~ total peace & harmony
2) Darul Mukamah – place of eternal dwelling
3) Darul Khulq – lace of everlasting life
4) Darul Al-‘And – the Garden
5) Darul Hayawan – place of life where desires will be completed ~ blessings on soul and body
dunya: primarily blessings on the body, secondary on the soul
grave: primarily blessings on the soul, secondary on the body

Description of Jannah by Ibn Qayyim’s NUNIYYAH

Nuniyyah is a poem written by Ibn Qayyim with thousands of verses describing jannah and each verse ended with a Nun

1) Allah has created Jannah with HIS 2 HANDS. Jannah says upon the completion of its creation,”Verily believers are the successful, because all of the blessings that Allah has put into me. Allah has created for believers i.e. jannah, in it which no eyes has seen, no ears has ever heard and no hearts has ever feel of”.[Musnad Imam Ahmad]
2) Jannah is a huge creation, 70k angels in each wing, with 8 gates ~ each gates with a distance of 70 years of fast horse ride
· 2/3 of the people who’ll enter jannah will be from our time
· sweetness of Jannah is so great the smell can be smelt by all angles and corners
3) People who enter jannah:
· 1st group = Rasulullah s.a.w with the companions ~ their faces are shining like the full moon (so beautiful)
· 2nd group = shinng like the stars, the shining is in comparison to the level of eman. The best level of eman will shining the brightest and vice versa. They wash their faces with the water of river of jannah upon entering the gate of the paradise.
4) description of people of Jannah
· everyone will be at the age of 33, except for those who died as babies will remain babies
· the skin color will be white for believers and black for the disbelievers. ~white as a sign of believers: pure and clean of associating partners with Allah
· everyone will have the height of 60’ in length and 7 m wide, and have heavy kuhl on the eyes
· speak pure Arabic language
5) The House in jannah
· Palaces made of emerald, ruby, jewels, pearls
· How to get these palaces? Pray 12 nawafil prayers everyday to build yourself a palace in Jannah
· Dirts of jannah are za’faraan, when the clothes wipe off the floor, there’ be no dirt
· Rooms of the palaces will be transparent for people who fast, pray, speak good, do good.
· Tents for believers = a place for rest and enjoy =>huge & beautiful, for each tent, there’ll be wife (hurul’ain) ~no jealousy in Jannah, so each wife will not be jealous of each other. Furthermore, the distance between each tents are so huge, with the height of 60 miles each!
6) Environment
· leaves made of emerald
· trees are so close to you ~when you want the fruit, the trees will bent to you, so you can reach the fruit =)
· the sounds of jannah ~ trees, flowers, leaves = buzzing caused by the flowing of the wind --à beautiful
· the most beautiful sound is when the wife is singing =)
· rivers of Jannah has no end, its not only rivers of water, but also rivers of milk, honey and wine, these rivers will flow underneath your houses, you’ll see it because the house is transparent
· Drinks and food will be the tastiest wine one never tastes and the most beautiful smell
· Food ~Ibn Mas’ud : when u see a bird and have he thought of eating a bbq’d bird, it will be ready in front of you ~ you can eat it right away
· The dwellers of jannah will only sweat and burp with a beautiful smell of burp. Does not urinate or waste =)
7) The Women of Jannah (Hurul ‘ain)
· They are so beautiful, and Allah has created them without them doing any ibadah/worship. Can you imagine, how would the believing women look like? The women who worship Allah all her life? ~~Believing Women will be the Leader of the Hurul‘ain ~ are more beautiful than the hurul’ain
· Hurul’ain are made from saffron (with such beauty and fragrant)
· When the men see their wives ~ they’ll be amazed and say subhanallah~age 33 and all virgins
· The hurul’ain shoes are made of pleated silver
· Lightning in Jannahare equal of the smile of hurul’ain [At-Tabarani]
· The wife will be virgin each time serving her husband and the man will be given the power of how many man based on their level of eman (up to 1000 men)
8) SEEING ALLAH azza wajalla ~ Meeting with ALLAH
· The greatest blessing is to MEET ALLAH ~ people will forget about Jannah
· Allah will talk to the people of Jannah ~ FOREVER! =)
· On the day of jumaah ~ all levels will gather, everyone will be on the same level ~ and Allah will talk to them all
9) market of Jannah ~ angels will bring all sorts of thing that you have never seen
before ~ you can get whatever you want without cash or money, because you already paid everything with your deeds in dunya!
· Will be everlasting youth – there’ll be no sleep and no tiredness. Why? If you sleep, you’ll loose all the blessings in Jannah
· Lifestyle of jannah is full of enjoyment
· The last person to enter Jannah will get 100 times of this world!!

WAKE UP! Work hard for the Jannah that Allah has promised! REALIZE THAT DEATH IS VERY SOON!
· INDEED THE LIFE IN THIS DUNYA IS A PASSING PLEASURE!!
Let us be one of those who desire Jannah. Ameen

2007-07-18T00:17:00.000-07:00

source : http://kalamullah.com/misc.html

Ten different phrases that are short, easy, and light, but will give you what no eye has seen, no hear has heard, and what no mind has imagined.
Enjoy (and implement):

1 - "Whoever says: 'Glorified is Allah, the Most Great, and praised is He' [Subhan Allah al-'Adhim wa bi-Hamdih] will have a date palm planted for him in Paradise." ['Sahih al-Jami'' #5531]

2 - "Whoever is stricken with sadness, grief, sickness or hardship and says: 'Allah is my Lord, without any partners' [Allahu Rabbi, la sharika lah], then it will be removed from him." ['Sahih al-Jami'' #6040]

3 - "Whoever ate something, then said: ‘Praise be to Allah who has fed me this food and provided it for me, without any strength or power on my part’ [al-Hamdu lillah aladhi at'amani hadha wa Razaqnih bi ghayr hawlin minni wa la quwwa] is forgiven his past and future sins. And whoever wears a garment and says: ‘Praise be to Allah who has clothed me with this garment and provided it for me without any strength or power on my part' [al-Hamdu lillah aladhi kasani hadha at-thawb wa Razaqnih bi ghayr hawlin minni wa la quwwa] is forgiven his past and future sins." ['Sahih al-Jami'' #6086]

4 - "Whoever enters the marketplace and says: 'There is none worthy of worship except Allah who has no partners, for Him is the Dominion, and for Him is all Praise, He brings life and He causes death, and He is Alive and does not die, in His Hand is all good, and He is able to do all things,' [La ilaha ill-Allah, Wahdahu la sharika lahu, lahul-Mulk, wa lahul-Hamd, yuhyiyy wa yumit, wa Huwa Hayyun la yamut, bi Yadihil-Khayr wa Huwa 'ala kulli shay'in Qadir] then Allah will write one million good deeds for him, and will wipe away one million of his bad deeds, and will raise him one million levels and will build a home for him in Paradise." ['Sahih al-Jami'' #6231]

5 - "Whoever controls his anger when he is able to act upon it, then Allah will call him to come in front of all of the Creation so that he would let him choose from the Hur al-'Ayn and marry from them whomever he pleases." ['Sahih al-Jami'' #6518]

6 - "Whoever asks Allah for Paradise three times [Allahumma inni as'aluk al-Jannah], then Paradise will say: "O Allah! Enter him into Paradise!" And whoever seeks protection with Allah from the Fire three times [Allahumma najjini min an-Nar], the Fire will say: "O Allah! Protect him from the Fire!"" [Reported by at-Tirmidhi, and it is authentic]

7 - "Whoever seeks forgiveness for the believing men and the believing women, Allah writes for him - for every believing man and woman - a good deed." [Reported by at-Tirmidhi, Ibn Majah, and Ahmad, and it is authentic]

8 - ‘Abdullah bin Mas’ud said: "Whoever reads 'al-Mulk' (chapter 67 of the Qur'an) every night, Allah will protect him from the torment of the grave. At the time of the Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him), we used to call it al-mani’ah (that which protects). In the Book of Allah, it is a chapter which - whoever recites it every night - has done very well." ['Sahih at-Targhib wat-Tarhib' #1475]

9 - "Whoever asks Allah sincerely for martyrdom [Allahumma inni as'aluk ash-shahadah], Allah will cause him to reach the status of the martyrs even if he dies in his bed." ['Sahih al-Bukhari' #1909]

10 - "No one witnesses that there is none worthy of worship but Allah and that I am Allah's Messenger - truthfully, from his heart - except that Allah makes the Fire of Hell forbidden to touch him." [Reported by Muslim, Ahmad, and al-Bayhaqi]

Translated by Abu Sabaayaa

2007-06-27T17:51:00.000-07:00

GHURABAA' ~THE STRANGER
source: http://forums.almaghrib.org/showthread.php?t=7350
listen here: http://www.enshad.net/audio/Al-Damaam_D_2/Al-Damaam_D_2_-_05_-_'3orabaa2_'3orabaa2.ram

Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`
Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

غرباء ولغير الله لا نحنى الجباة
Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah

غرباء وارتضيناها شعارا للحياة
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

غرباء ولغير الله لا نحنى الجباة
Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah

غرباء وارتضيناها شعارا للحياة
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life
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إن تسأل عنّا فإنّا لا نبال بالطغاة
If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants

نحن جند الله دوما دربنا درب الأباة
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

إن تسأل عنّا فإنّا لا نبال بالطغاة
If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants

نحن جند الله دوما دربنا درب الأباة
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path
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Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa
`Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

لن نبال للقيود بل سنمضى للخلود
We never care about the chains, rather we'll continue forever

لن نبال للقيود بل سنمضى للخلود
We never care about the chains, rather we'll continue forever

فلنجاهد ونناضل ونقاتل من جديد
So let us make jihad, and battle, and fight from the start

غرباء ... هكذا الأحرار في دنيا العبيد
Ghurabaa`, this is how they are free in the enslaved world

فلنجاهد ونناضل ونقاتل من جديد
So let us make jihad, and battle, and fight from the start

غرباء ... هكذا الأحرار في دنيا العبيد
Ghurabaa`, this is how they are free in the enslaved world

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Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa
`Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

كم تذاكرنا زمانا نحن يوم كنّا سعداء
How many times we remembered a time when we were

الله نتلوه صباحا أو مساءا
In the book of Allah, we recite in the morning and the evening

كم تذاكرنا زمانا نحن يوم كنّا سعداء
How many times we remembered a time when we were happy

بكتاب الله نتلوه صباحا أو مساءا
In the book of Allah, we recite in the morning and the evening
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Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa
`Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

غرباء ولغير الله لا نحنى الجباة
Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah

غرباء وارتضيناها شعارا للحياة
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

غرباء ولغير الله لا نحنى الجباة
Ghurabaa` do not bow the foreheads to anyone besides Allah

غرباء وارتضيناها شعارا للحياة
Ghurabaa` have chosen this to be the motto of life

إن تسأل عنّا فإنّا لا نبال بالطغاة
If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants

نحن جند الله دوما دربنا درب الأباة
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path

إن تسأل عنّا فإنّا لا نبال بالطغاة
If you ask about us, then we do not care about the tyrants

نحن جند الله دوما دربنا درب الأباة
We are the regular soldiers of Allah, our path is a reserved path
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Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa
`Ghurabaa`, ghurabaa`, ghurabaaa` ghurabaa`

2007-06-26T20:55:00.000-07:00

Don't despair of your sins- they will literally drown in Allah's (Subhanhu wa' ta'ala) Forgiveness.

The forgiveness of Allah is like the words of Allah- never ending!

2007-06-20T23:38:00.000-07:00

**.....bismillah......A good list of things to do for Islam and for Allah! Don't delay cause Allah never once delay our needs, ACT NOW! ~bintNaim

Easy Good Deeds
author:unknown

1. Think of Allah before you take any action. Make dua before everything- sleeping, eating, studying, driving...
2. Read the Qur'an in Arabic and the meaning every day - take the time out of your busy schedule to listen to Allah.
3. Become a serious student of this Deen. Try to make it to the next Islamic class, halaqah or meeting. Shock your friends, bring a notebook.
4. Evaluate yourself daily before going bed. Thank Allah for good deeds, repent to Him for your mistakes and sins.
5. Avoid looking at unlawful pictures, whether they be from television, magazines, or otherwise.
6. Study the history of Islam. Learn of the great scholars and warriors who died with Allah on their lips and Islam in their hearts. Strive to emulate them.
7. Spend some time listening to recitation of the Quran. Find reciters that you like, try Abu Bakr ash-Shatri, al-Ghamdi, as-Sudais, al-Minshawi..
8. Encourage your non-practicing friends to come to Islamic events.
9. Hang out with other Muslims.
10. Talk to your non-Muslim friends about Islam. Have you taken the time to explain the basics to them?
11. Go to at least one convention/conference/camp a year.
12. Perform the sunnah and nawafil salahs as much as possible. Find time to pray extras, such as Salat ad-Duha, Qiyamul-layl, and Tahajjud.
13. Subscribe to a Muslim magazine.
14. Buy Islamic gear instead of the latest Tommy Hil, CK, Nike, or Adidas...
15. Take the time to understand what's going on in
the Muslim world today. Do your part to get involved and help relief organizations. 16. Try to fast Mondays and Thursdays as of today.
17. Lower your gaze.
18. Start reading Qur'an after Salat-ul Fajr.
19. Go to bed early so that you can wake up far Salat-ul Fajr.
20. Keep yourself in a state of wudu' most of the time.
21. Really listen to speakers. Take their advice to heart, commit yourself to change.
22. Give yourself time alone, so that you can think about your life, your deeds, make dhikr.
23. Start giving sadaqah daily, no matter how little. Make it a habit like eating and drinking.
24. Spend more time reading Islamic books, especially the Seerah, Hadith, and Fiqh.
25. Associate with knowledgeable people, hafidh, qari', and other ulama. You might learn something.
26. Try to learn how to make dawah to non-muslims. It is an art requiring knowledge and diplomacy.
27. Watch as little television as possible. Seriously.
28. Go to the masjid.
29. Don't criticize if you dislike something- do your part to change it.
30. Stand up for right, forbid evil. Just say no to gheebah.
31. Avoid eating too much. Do not eat unless you are hungry and try not to fill your stomach
32. If you like to listen to music, replace them with nasheed, music with islamic lyrics or with Quranic recitation. (some examples: Whisper of Peace, Prayers of the Last Prophet, MYNA raps: the Next Level)
33. Buy Islamic videos, tapes, posters, books, clothes, support your Muslims brothers and sisters and make Islam a part of every aspect of your life.
34. If you meet any new Muslims, buddy up with them and make them feel like a part of your community.
35. Break out of your clique.
36. Keep three extra Qur'an translations and some literature in your home at all times. You never know when you'll find someone interested who wants to know more.

BE BRAVE
PREPARE FOR STRUGGLE
PERSEVERE
HAVE CERTAINTY THAT ISLAM WILL BE VICTORIOUS

2007-06-18T19:46:00.000-07:00

Music for Life ~Part III
bintNaim

.....continued............

...bismillah.....
I seek Allah's forgiveness for the delay of cotinuing the post. InshaAllah, this will be the last part of this topic.

continuing from the last post, the reason why I chose to stop listening to these music is because I think I wanted to find a peace of the heart. Alhamdulillah, after listennig to what is within the limits, I can feel the difference in my ibadah. No more rythm of the pop song would play in my head during my solah. I guess, this is one of the way shaytaan could mislead us in our ibadah. Though sometimes I did loose the grip and accidentally or willingly listen to these musics, and then the rythm came back.

The whole point is, alhamdulillah after 3 years now stopped listening to these music, I had better choice in other things I can listen to. Now, the islamic lectures do not bore me. The nasheed become so close to me. The quran recitation is the only thing that soothe me more than anything else in this world. And i realize that Quran recitation even though I can't understand much the meaning of the verses, intrigue me. And the feeling of learning the quran grew wild within me. Indeed, it is Allah's Mercy that He opened my heart to His Qalam~the Quran.
I pray to Allah to grant me His Guidance. Ameen.......

2007-05-28T18:50:00.000-07:00

......bismillah.........

this is the english translation of my favorite naat ever
Allahu (By Zain Bhikha)

ENGLISH TRANSLATIONS:
The morning light is by your countenance,
And the splendour of the night by your plaits.

The master is a treasure of grace,
The master is a treasure of mercy.

He is the guide of the whole community,
And the one who shows the way of the Sacred Law.

They came upon the gesture of a finger,
Stones from the Hijaz began to speak.

And the moon was split in two,
By a single gesture of the finger
On the night of the Ascension,
The Archangel Gabriel came with tidings of God.

Allah called him to the heavens,
[And] bestowed upon him thehonour of intimacy.

2007-05-21T01:04:00.001-07:00

.......bismillah......
"~Why is it hard to understand that Satan is in control of our soul only by complete permission from us? It would save us from so much pain and turmoil if we could only think of the consequences of sinful behavior. If only we took the time to think, we would steer a course to success. We should not forget the reminders that Allah the Almighty gives us, and that He is always watching. We should also remember that the outcome of sinful behavior is always destructive. ~"
I quoted this from an email I got in the mailing list. I think this email was
abou the boy-girl relationship.
Shaytaan as disgusting the name is, we must realize that truly they are our
no. 1 enemy in the world! Sure, it is trial for us that it is hard to fight
against them. I believe truly that if we have Allah in our remembrance all the
time, shaytaan is no more a hard enemies to us. Nevertheless, it is not easy to
have Allah in our rememberance every second in our life.
~Allahu ta'ala 'alam wa ana la adree.....

2007-05-03T23:57:00.000-07:00

When I Say...
by: author unknown....

When I say. . .I am a Muslim,
I'm not shouting " down with Christians and Jews."
I am whispering "I seek peace,"
and Islam is the path that I choose.

When I say. . . I am a Muslim,
I speak of this with pride.
And confess that sometimes I stumble,
and need Allah to be my guide.

When I say. . .I am a Muslim,
I know this makes me strong.
And in those times when I am weak,
I pray to Allah for strength to carry on.

When I say. . . I am a Muslim,
I'm not boasting of success.
I'm acknowledging that Allah has rescued me,
and I cannot ever repay the debt.

When I say. . .I am a Muslim,
I'm not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are indeed visible,
but Allah forgives because his followers are worth it.

When I say. . .I am a Muslim,
it does not mean I will never feel pain.
I still have my share of heartaches,
which is why I invoke Allah's name.

When I say. . .I am a Muslim,
I do not wish to judge.
I have no such authority
My duty is to submit to Allah's all-encompassing love.

**masha Allah! as a muslim, I can relate to every single word in this poem
may Allah bless the one who wrote it.

2007-04-24T23:54:00.000-07:00

Letter to a Dear Friend

10:09 a.m wednesday 25th April 2007
.........bismillah...............

dear friend,
not less than 4 years ago we met....
i only realized today that
i love u for the sake of Allah.....

u have taught me a lot about this deen
u have opened my eyes how wide this world can be
and how much we can seek the knowledge of Allah
u have helped me opened my heart to this deen

those 2 years we had in a small house of Little Italy,
i had learned so much from u,
thank you for not given up on me
for keeping ur trust on me
that one day i will realize
that there is no limit to Allah
and only US that are limited

so together we must SEEK for HIS Pleasure,
and SEEK for HIS Jannah,
my hope is that we will meet again in the HEREAFTER......
our final destination!

and i thanked Allah azza wajalla for HIS Mercy
that HE gives me a wonderful friend like you!

from the heart,
~bintNaim

2007-04-20T03:22:00.000-07:00

HOW MUCH DO WE WANT TO WORSHIP ALLAH?

....bismillah.....

I always wonder how much is the capability of each person?
The capability of one to worship his/her Lord and only God,ALLAH.
I know it is the works and wonder of Allah.
But, rather it is nested in the will and effort of each person too.

I always feel, the more I gaze and think about how much Allah had given me, the more I wanted to worship HIM. It is like the boost of eman each time I think of how great is Allh. Then, my to-do-list will be lengthy starting with memorizing the quran, doing some nawafil ibadah,learning some fiqh, reading the seerah etc.......

Nevertheless, I am so limited and each time I failed to do these things in my list, I got so frustrated with myself and there it goes, the eman-meter will just boom----like a water thrown out from the 100th floor of a building.

It is very hard to be persistent in every thing that I try to do.
Indeed it is the work of shaytaan and indeed they have won over my eman.
What is more frustrating is, when it took me a long time trying to regain the hype of my eman back to the comfort level.

Last night, when I listen to Yasir Qadhi's Story of the Ifk ~ He did mentioned something about repentance. He said that no matter how much sins we have committed, we must always repent to Allah. Because Allah is Most Merciful and Most Forgiving, He will always forgives us. Even though it means that to repent each time after we commit a sin. Don't ever give up! Cause when you give up, it means that we have surrendered ourselves to will of shaytaan!!! We are human, we are not perfect. And that's how Allah has created us for, to always remember HIM and seek His Forgiveness.

...to be continued.....

2007-04-17T00:00:00.000-07:00

Amazing Interview with a 14 years old new Muslimah !

Islamway.comThe way she speaks is really impressive .. after my conversation with her .. I thought that I must tell her the fact that she is very mature .. please read her words .. and distribute it ..

IslamWay.com:Dear Sister .. As-salamu alaykum wa rahmatu Allah sister , first of all .. Congratulations for accepting Islam
Sara:wa alaikum assalam, thank-you

IslamWay.com:Can you give us brief information about yourself ?
Sara:My name is Sara, I am 14 years old and in high school. I live in the U.S.

IslamWay.com:Welcome sister Sara .. I'm really amazed to see someone in your age searching for the truth .. let me admit that .. Can you tell us .. how did you know about Islam for the first time in your life ?
Sara:Yes, the first time I heard about Islam was about 3 years ago, I was curious about God and religion and wanted to know what others believed. I started reading different materials and read about Islam. I was amazed by how much sense it made.

IslamWay.com:Isn't it kind of strange to start reading about religions when you were 11 years old .. is there is any special thing that you have other than other kids around you ?
Sara -smiling-:I suppose it is strange to read about religion at 11, most my friends didn't understand how I could be so interested in finding God. My family is Christian, and I have been raised in religion, so it seemed only natural for me to study religion thoroughly and decide on my own what the truth was.

IslamWay.com:Did you read the Quran ?
Sara:Not at that time, no.

IslamWay.com:"A Muslim woman is oppressed and needs to be librated like the western women" .. do you have a comment about this ?
Sara:It saddens me that so many people in the world today believe that Muslim women are oppressed. I believe that we are the most liberated women on earth! To follow the guidelines Allah has given us is the most liberating thing any woman can do.

IslamWay.com:Well .. from what you see in the west .. are the women there librated ?
Sara:No, most women in the west are oppressed. We are used as sex symbols. Most women wear outfits that barely cover them, they use their bodies to get attention. We are expected to have 'perfect' bodies by the media's standards, we are supposed to look and act a certain way, and we are expected to do whatever the media tells us to do, and that is to disrespect ourselves and Allah.

IslamWay.com:So did you wear the hijab ?
Sara:No I do not. I would like to very much, but my family is unaware that I converted to Islam, and I will wear the hijab after I tell them.

IslamWay.com:You think that you will have problems with them after telling them ?
Sara:I'm not sure. I supose I am allowing my fear to keep me from telling them.

IslamWay.com:I see .. Just ask Allah to give your the power and the patience to take this step .. and I guess all Muslims who are reading this interview now will make du'a for you to ease things in sha Allah ..

IslamWay.com:What is the thing you liked most in the Muslims community ?
Sara:I admire the dedication Muslims have to Islam, there is an amazing peace and grace that Allah gives to those who serve him as completely as they can. To many it may seem hard to follow Allah's guidelines, but Allah gives every Muslim an amazing strength to help them. What I liked most about the Muslims I met was how friendly and caring they were.

IslamWay.com:"Most of Muslims nowadays are not practicing Muslims .. " first of all .. what do you feel about that ? And is that why Islam is not spreading too fast ? And what would you say to a none pracitcing Muslim ?

Sara:
1) I firmly believe that the statement "Most Muslims nowadays are not practicing Muslims .. " is false. I do not believe you can truly be Muslim without being a 'practicing Muslim'. Islam isn't just a religion, it's a way of life. That's one of the many things I love about it.
2) Islam is one of the fastest growing religions in the world, I believe the reason for this is that people see the truth in it, and when they decide to live to serve Allah, they are given an amazing happiness and grace that others see and admire, that is what draws people to Islam.
3) Trust Allah, serve him completely, and he will give you the grace, peace, and happiness you need to be a 'practicing Muslim'.

IslamWay.com:What is your future plans ? Your dreams ?
Sara:I've always had a dream: To become a leader in our world and once again help establish peace and good relations between different people.

IslamWay.com:Do you have any plans for learning arabic ?
Sara:Yes. i LOVE languages. It's something that i enjoy very much, and my parents support my Arabic education, I will hopefully begin taking a language course this Fall. My dad lived in an Arabic speaking country for years, and so he would help me study.

IslamWay.com:oh i see .. which country ?
Sara:Sudan (in Africa)

IslamWay.com:Can you tell us in details how did you revert to Islam ?
Sara:I had originally heard about Islam about 3 years ago, my parents found out that I was reading about it and discouraged me from doing so, studying it much further. Then last Fall I started highschool at a new school that has a lot of Muslim students. When I first started going there I remembered my studying and was curious about how they would act. My parents had told me Muslims were horrible mean, militant, abusive people. So I kind of expected them to be that way, I was wrong! The first couple of friends I made there were Muslims.
They were nice, friendly, caring people. I remember them talking about their God, and I was amazed by how much they loved Islam. I began very quickly began respect them, and quickly became very curious about their beliefs. A friend of mine asked them about Islam one day, and it turned into a several hour long conversation about Allah, and Islam, and daily life. I was suprised by how much sense it all made, and how happy they were. I began reading the Qur'an and looking for more information on the internet, and soon after I said the shahadah and converted to Islam. I'm still amazed by how happy and peacefull my life is. Allah has given me much strength in every day life. Inshallah my parents will see this.

IslamWay.com:In sha Allah .. May Allah reward you sister for your time .. and may Allah keep you in the right path .. Amen .. As-salamu alaykum
Sara:wa alaikum assalam, thank-you

2007-03-19T19:18:00.000-07:00

Music for Life?
Part II

Apart from the nasheeds, I tried some lectures. Before, I thought lectures were very boring. I would fall asleep or yawning a few minutes after listening to these lectures. It took me some times to actually benefit from these lectures. I started listening to short lectures of known scholars in the US such as Syeikh Hamza Yusuf, and Imam Muhammad Alshareef. Also, the lecture series of Imam Anwar Al-Awalaki. I love Imam Anwar's lecture series.

During my senior year at Case, I listened to Imam Anwar's lecture series 1) The Lives of the Prophets 2) The Hereafter V1 & V2, for so many times whenever I am at home doing things in my room. I also listened to these when I got back to Malaysia.

Early 2006 I had an idea to actually write down notes for all the CD's i listened to. THEN, THE BIRTH OF THIS BLOG! After a year, I didn't really get much of the notes. Very sad.
I think it is very hard to be persistent in what we are doing. May Allah give me strength! Ameen

to be continued......

2007-03-16T03:04:00.001-07:00

Music for Life? Part I

...bismillah.....

just sharing my personal experience.
3 years ago, those ppl who knew me back then would always refer to me if they heard a song and wanted to know of the details of the songs. I was like the walking dictionary of all the pop songs played on the radio. Even hot gossips was like on tip of my tongue.

I was doing it because I love music so much that I have to listen to music to sleep. I would have my CD player everywhere I go, playing all these haraam songs. Also, it made me feel so cool to know all these songs. Silly as it sounds, I even memorized most of the songs. Cried over the lyrics of the songs. When I think back about it, I felt stupid.

During my junior year at Case, everything changed. I started to realized that these are haraam music. Though it was hard to stop. I managed to do it slowly. It needs a lot of guts to get rid something that had been your lifestyle.

I would say that the strenght that was given by Allah to me for all this, started from the day I knew Al-Maghrib. (I think it started from listenning to Imam Muhammad Alshareef's WHEN WOLVES BECOME SHEPHERD) It was not only Al-Maghrib, but also supports from those circle of friends who never stop to be in the loop of Islam.

Nevertheless, mainly it is you yourself nees to be strong to go against the will of listenning to these haraam music. One day, a friend told me that she tought it was impossible to not listening to music at all. Music is like everywhere in our life. Unless, if you live deep in the jungle.

My first step when I decided to stop listening to these haraam musics are to get rid of all songs stored in my PC. The next step was I sold all my CDs to a CD warehouse. Anything that could possibly lead me to music, I did throw it. Not leaving any trace of it.

Then, I nees alternative to actually feed my soul to the music. We do have other options such as the nasheed english or arabic or malay available anywhere. So that's when i started listening to Yusuf Islam, Dawud Wharnsby Ali, Zain Bhikha n Raihan. I did not really like other Malay's nasheed cause for me some of them are quite misleading. I'd rather be on the safe side listening to something that won't diverge myself to the music.

For me, what is more important is the lyric of the song that can make me a better muslim.

to be continued.......

2007-03-13T17:54:00.000-07:00

Eight Things I've Learned From You
[Hatim al asa'ad said to his shiekh]
[ notes from brother Mukhtar's seminar on Dhikr and Raqa'iq, 3/13/99 ]

1 - People do not bring to the grave that which is beloved to them. So my beloved is hassana (rewards), which can join me in my grave.

2 - People let their nafs (self) be their leader. I reflected upon the ayaat in the Quran: "..And for such as had restrained their lower desires, their abode will be the garden.."
So I took jihad against my nafs (self).

3 - People protect that which is dear to them. I reflected upon the ayah: "That which is with you will end, but that which is with Allah will remain forever..'
So every time something was dear to me, I directed it to Him so that it would be protected forever.

4 - People love to relate to wealth, honor, dignity, and prestige. I reflected upon the ayah: "And the most honored among you are those with taqwaa.."
So I sought taqwaa, so that I could be honored and dignified by Allah.

5 - People envy. I reflected upon the ayah: "And it is We who divided among them their livlihood...'
So I sought to divorce myself from envy.

6 - People express enmity amongst each other. I reflected upon the ayah: "Truly shaytaan is your enemy, so treat him as your enemy.."
So I have no animosity of people, and I make shaytaan my true enemy.

7 - People humble and degrade themselves for wealth.
I reflected on the ayah "And there is not one living creature that is not provided for by Allah.." So I occupied myself with what I owe Him, and what I have with Him.

8 - People rely on themselves.
Instead, I have tawakaltu alAllah (Reliance on Allah).

Ya Allah if I do not die knowledgable, then let me die as one seeking knowledge!

2007-03-06T01:26:00.000-08:00

When Does a Woman Become More Beautiful?

*****This is an interesting dialogue between the evil and the good of one man. Read and Reflect!!

One day, Myself - forever forbidding me from good, and enticing me into evil - asked me, “When does a woman become more beautiful in your eyes?”
I asked, “Why do you want to know?”
Myself said, “If I tell you, will you answer my question? ”
I said, “Yes!”
Myself said, “Satan - our grand teacher - is making a survey of what makes the woman more beautiful in the eyes of men”
I asked, “What's this survey for?”
Myself said, “He wants to make an encyclopedia that will be distributed among the Satans of mankind and Jinn. He wants our approach to be more scientific! Now tell me, when does the woman become more beautiful in your eyes?”
I asked, “Do you have ways of making a woman more beautiful in the eyes of men?”
Myself said, “Yes, there are many ways, mannerisms and looks. Each man has his own inclinations”

I said, “Perhaps you could mention to me some of these and I will choose!”
“OK! Do you prefer a fair or dark woman?” “Neither!”
“Do you like the one with long or short hair?” “Neither!”
“The thin or fat one?” “Neither!”
“Do you like the one who uncovers her hair?” “NO!”
“Do you like the one who wears tight and short clothes” “NO!”
“What about the one who uncovers her shoulders and thighs?” “No way!”
“What about the one who sways from side-to-side while walking, strikes the floor with her high heels and speaks softly to men??” “NO!”
“You didn't like any of the ones I mentioned to you? I can't think of anything else?” “Really? Try to remember!”
....(silence)... then Myself smiled slyly, “YOU WICKED!! You like a woman when she is wearing a bikini?!!”
“Yuck! No!!”
....(silence)... then Myself smiled again, “You evil man!” “What?”
“You like the woman who shuts the door and says come?” “NO!”
“I've run out of suggestions; you tell me what makes a woman more attractive to you?”
“OK! When the woman blushes and goes all red”

“Goes all red? I don't understand?”
“She becomes more beautiful when she lowers her gaze”
“Lowers her gaze?!! What's wrong with you? Speak clearly!”
“The woman becomes more attractive, when she becomes more modest and shy. Modesty is the thing that attracts me and many other men. The more a woman is modest the more attractive she becomes....Do you understand??”

This article is loosly adapted from the Arabic original - written by Ibn Muhammad -

2007-02-08T02:10:00.000-08:00

by the Name of Allah.....

I've been listening to Native Deen's Intention.
If one listens to the lyric,
it will really strike you in the heart.

Basically, they are saying that whatever we do in this life
are useless if our intention is not for Allah.

2007-01-03T20:24:00.000-08:00

The Secret

One day, one friend asked another,

"How is it that you are always so happy?

You have so much energy,

and you never seem to get down."

With her eyes smiling, she said,

"I know the Secret!"

"What secret is that?"

To which she replied,

"I'll tell you all about it,

but you have to promise to

share the Secret with others."
"The Secret is this:

I have learned there is little I can do

in my life that will make me truly happy.

I must depend on Allah to make

me happy and to meet my needs.

When a need arises in my life,

I have to trust Almighty Allah to supply

according to HIS riches.

I have learned most of the time

I don't need half of what I think I do.

He has never let me down.

Since I learned that `Secret', I am happy."

The questioner's first thought was,

"That's too simple!"

But upon reflecting over her own life

she recalled how she thought a bigger house

would make her happy, but it didn't!

She thought a better paying job

would make her happy, but it hadn't.

When did she realize her greatest happiness?

Sitting on the floor with her grandchildren,

playing games, eating pizza or reading a story,

a simple gift from Allah Almighty.

Now you know it too!

We can't depend on people to make us happy.

Only Allah in His infinite wisdom can do that.

Trust HIM!

And now I pass the Secret on to you!

So once you get it, what will you do?

YOU have to tell someone the Secret, too!

That Allah in His wisdom will take care of YOU!

But it's not really a secret�

We just have to believe it and do it!

Really trust Him!

In everything you do, put Allah first, and he will direct you and crown your effort with success.

--------------------------
* From an email I received 2 days ago.
The message is so simple, but to do it is not as simple as one might think.
I have been trying to put all my trust to HIM.
Most of the time I fail and I started to blame everyone else around me.
Though I hate to do so, I couldn't stop the rush to be mad.
If I can follow these steps, surely I will be happier and in peace.
I am still learning and adapting to be a good muslim.
Please, Allah....give me the strenght to fight in Your Way.

2006-11-27T23:07:00.000-08:00

Proverbs
Syed Ahsen Ali

*The best security a child can have is in the guidance of parents who respect each other.

————————

Life is a test. Islam is the best.

Salah is a must.

Aaqirat is for rest.

World is only a dust.

If Qur’an is in the chest.

Nothing needs next.

Obey Allah first.

Success will be next.

2006-11-21T16:42:00.000-08:00

...bismillah Ar-Rahman Ar-Raheem.........

I've been reading a book adopted from a lecture by Shaikh 'Adnan 'Abdul Qadir titled THE LOVE of ALLAH......
Some distinguishing points from the book that I would like to share......

1)The Cause to Love ALLAH:

Knowing the great ........BEAUTY
........QUALITIES
and.........KINDNESS............of ALLAH

2) Worship is love for ALLAH

3) "Indeed Allah is beautiful and He loves beauty" [Muslim]

4) "I desire the pleasure of seeing the Face of My Lord, a single look at Allah is equal to this world and what is in it" Abu Bakar radiyAllahu 'anhu.

5) The greatest pleasure to the believers is the sight of Allah
The worst punishment to the people of fire is the denial to see Allah.

6) Tawhid is the love of worship Allah only - Sufyaan At-Thawree

7) "I have come out from amongthe houses so that I can speak to myself about You, O My Lord (Allah)" - Ibn Taymiyyah

8) "O Allah, assist me to remember You, to be grateful to You and to worship You properly" - Ibn Qayyim

9) Allah dominates the hearts of the believers.

Allahu ta'ala 'alam wa ana la adree......

2006-10-05T18:39:00.000-07:00

bismillah.....

sambungan dari post sebelum ni...

Kalau di Palestin, kanak-kanaknya lari lintang pukang pabila
terdengar bunyi bom-bom dan peluru berpandu tentera Israel.....
Ramadhan mereka diselubungi was-was dan ketakutan.........

Di Malaysia? Bulan Ramadhan ni, apa yang mereka buat?
Sejak hari pertama saya menjejakkan kaki ke surau di kawasan
perumahan saya ni, saya sangat-sangat bersyukur kerana dapat
menunaikan solat terawikh berjemaah.......

Tapi sungguh menyedihkan.....melihat kanak-kanak ni
berebut-rebut membakar mercun,
berasa seronok dan puas dengan dengan bunyi mercun yang berdentum dentam
memecah kesunyian......

Jika di Palestin, kanak-kanaknya berhati-hati ketika hendak bersolat terawikh,
di Malaysia? walaupun surau yang cantik telah disediakan......siap ada moreh lagi.....
kenapa mercun juga yang mereka pilih?

Saya berasa kesal melihat anak-anak ini........dan juga sedih.

Mungkin juga kekurangan diri sendiri menambahkan lagi kekesalan ini.
Saya sangat kesal kerana bunyi dentuman-dentuman mercun ini betul-betul
mengganggu konsentrasi saya bersolat terawikh.
Ramadhan hanya datang setahun sekali........betapa susahnya hendak mendapatkan
kesempurnaan ibadah terawikh tahun ni.
Kebetulan kawasan surau di perumahan saya dikelilingi tanah lapang yang menjadi
tumpuan anak-anak ni bermain - main ketika jemaah lain sedang solat terawikh.

Tiada apa yang boleh saya lakukan kecuali bersabar dan kuatkan semangat.
Untuk solat terawikh sendirian di rumah, bukanlah pilihan yang terbaik.
Saya berasa seronok dapat berjumpa dengan jiran tetangga dan juga
merasai nikmat solat berjemaah.
Mungking juga ini ujian tuhan supaya menjadi penghapus dosa-dosa lepas.

Oh Allah, tuhan sekalian alam, berikan aku kekuatan untuk terus mencari rahmatMu
dalam Ramadhan ini. Hanya Engkau Pemberi Rahmat kepada semua hambaMu.
Ameen.

2006-10-05T18:17:00.000-07:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Nights of Ramadhan are full of belssings,
there we are praying terawikh in Jamaah....
with the beautiful recitation of the Imam....

In the midst of the prayer,
everyone are schocked by the loud blast from
outside the musolla......
And then, the Imam give the final salam remarks
the end of the 8th rakaah of terawikh prayer......

A lot of buzz from the makmum.......
what happened? .......
Somebody told the Imam that
he missed 1 rakaah for the last terawikh prayer......
So, there we are....
Praying again for another 2 rakaah.......

I did not blame the Imam...
He might be shocked by the loud blast....
like many of us........
Made him forget his rakaah.....

People around me were laughing and confused
with the Imam's forgetfulness......
Some say,"Apa iman ni? Kenapa 1 rakaat je?"

You may wonder where was the blast coming from?
It is........
the sound of fire-cracker (mercun)!!!!
The kids outside were playing around with it!

2006-10-05T00:48:00.000-07:00

......bismillah...
got this in one of the mailing list I subscribe to. Pretty interesting cause it rhymes,
yet how true is the message that the teacher wanted to convey.
READ and REFLECT!!!.............

Subject: petikan ceramah ust. hj akil...

Di dalam hidup manusia, yang penting ialah BERKAT.

Bila hidup kita berkat, diri ini akan selamat.

Apabila diri selamat, rumahtangga jadi sepakat.

Apabila rumahtangga jadi sepakat, masyarakat jadi muafakat.

Apabila masyarakat jadi muafakat, negara kita menjadi kuat.

Apabila negara menjadi kuat, negara luar jadi hormat.

Apabila negara luar jadi hormat, permusuhan pun tersekat.

Apabila permusuhan tersekat, pembangunan pun meningkat.

Apabila pembangunan pun meningkat, kemajuan menjadi pesat.

TETAPI AWAS!

Apabila pembangunan meningkat, kemajuan menjadi pesat, kita lihat bangunan naik bertingkat-tingkat.

Ditengah-tengah itu, tempat maksiat tumbuh macam kulat.

Apabila tempat-tempat maksiat tumbuh macam kulat,

KETIKA ITU manusia mula mengubah tabiat.

Apabila manusia telah mengubah tabiat, ada yang jadi lalat ada yang jadi ulat.

Apabila manusia dah jadi ulat, sembahyang makin hari makin liat.

Apabila sembahyang jadi liat, orang baik ada yang bertukar jadi jahat.

Apabila orang baik bertukar jahat, orang miskin pula nak kaya cepat.

Apabila orang miskin nak kaya cepat, orang tua pula nak mati lambat.

Apabila orang tua nak mati lambat, tak dapat minum madu telan jerla minyak gamat.

Yang lelaki, budak budak muda pakai seluar ketat.

Semua nak tunjuk kuat.

Bila berjudi, percaya unsur kurafat.

Tapi hidup pula yang melarat.

Tali kasut dah tak berikat.

Rambut pun jarang sikat.

Yang perempuan, pakai mini sekerat.

Suka pakai baju ketat.

Suka sangat menunjukkan pusat.

Hingga tak pedulikan lagi batasan aurat.

Pakai pulak yang singkat-singkat.

Kadang-kadang ternampak benda 'bulat'.

Bila jadi macam ini, siapa lihat pasti tercegat.

Silap gaya jadi gawat, bohsia bohjan lagi hebat.

Duduk jauh berkirim surat.

Bila berjumpa, tangan berjabat.

Kemudian pakat lawan peluk siapa erat.

Masa tu, nafas naik sampai tersekat-sekat.

Usah peduli agama dan adat.

Usah takut Allah dan malaikat.

Yang penting apa kita nak buat?

Kita 'bukti' lah kita buat.

Akhirnya perut kempis dah jadi bulat.

Apabila perut kempis dah jadi bulat, maka lahirlah pula anak-anak yang tak cukup sifat.

Bila anak-anak tak cukup sifat, jam tu kita tengok bayi dibuang di merata tempat.

MAKNANYA KETIKA ITU, IBLIS MULA MELOMPAT.

Dia kata apa? Habis manusia dah masuk jerat.

Habis manusia telah tersesat.

Inilah dia fenomena masyarakat.

Oleh itu wahai saudaraku dan para sahabat,

Marilah kita pakat mengingat,

Bahawa dunia hari ini makin singkat,

Esok atau lusa mungkin kiamat,

Sampai masa kita semua akan berangkat! .

Berangkat menuju ke negeri akhirat.

Di sana kita akan ditanya apa yang kita buat.

Masa tu, sendiri mau ingat.

Umur mu banyak mana mu buat ibadat...?

Zaman muda mu, apa yang telah mu buat...?

Harta benda anta, dari mana anta dapat...?

Ilmu anta, adakah anta manafaat...?

Semoga ianya dapat mengingatkan kita supaya segera meninggalkan maksiat dan memperbanyakkan ibadat.

(Petikan ucapan Ustaz Hj. Akil Hayy Rawa.

Sebarkanlah ini kepada ahli keluarga, saudara-mara, rakan-rakan dan sahabat handai kita agar masyarakat kita akan menjadi sebuah masyarakat yang bukan sahaja maju dari segi duniawi malah ukhrawi. Insya-Allah...)

2006-09-15T19:58:00.000-07:00

DU'A - Weapon of the Believer (Part 2)
Abu Ammar Yasir Qadhi

3) STATUS and BLESSING of DUA’

1) Most noble act in the sight of Allah – dua’ shows proper relation s of human and Allah: Allah = The Giver, human = ask

2) Best ibadah is dua’; eg – our solah is full of dua’

3) Dua’ is the essence of worship

4) Allah has commanded us to make dua’. So, when we make dua’ to him, we are obeying Allah.

5) The one who makes dua’, Allah comes closer to him/her. Allah loves him

6) Allah cares about us when we make dua’. The only reason Allah cares about you is because of dua’ >> Because when we make dua constantly, we are thinking about Him.

7) Dua’ is a sign of Allah’s Generosity and Perfect Nature.

8) Sign of one’s humbleness. [Arrogance/ Ria’ is one of the big sins.] When make duashows humility to Allah. To leave dua’ is arrogance.

9) Repels Allah’s anger and brings about Allah’s love. [Hadith: The one who leaves dua, Allah gets angry to them] >> Allah s.w.t gets angry if we stop asking. The more we ask, the more Allah will love you.

10) Dua’ saves us from the Hell Fire. If we are being good to human, but never remember/make dua to Allah, >> no one can saves us from Allah’s punishment.

11) The only act that can change predestination (Qadr) is dua’

12) Every single dua’ will be responded by Allah but it might not happen the way we wanted.

13) Weapon of the weak and the oppressed. When there is no hope to people or anything, dua is the most powerful weapon. E.g: Nuh a.s >> biggest flood, Ibrahim a.s >> burnt in the fire, etc

14) Opens up relationship between a person and Allah. This is our communication with Allah.

15) Dua’ is the easiest act of worship, no physical requirements for dua’.

2006-08-28T21:17:00.000-07:00

DU'A - Weapon of the Believer (Part 1)
Abu Ammar Yasir Qadhi

1) MEANING
a) Noble spiritual form of worship which a person cries out asking from Allah
b) Linguistic - to call out
c) Shareeah - to ask Allah that of benefit and ask Allah to remove any evil

- act of ibadah "Ask from Me, I will definitely help you. If you are too arrogant to worship Me, then you are in Hell Fire."
- essence of ibadah - to not make dua means not to worship Allah
- dua acknowledge Allah's power and acknowledge our level in the sight of Allah.

- Dua' affirms all 3 types of tauhid
i) Rububiyyah - proof that Allah exists because every single human on earth will call out to Allah even though they didn't use the name Allah.
ii) Uluhiyyah - when we acknowledge that only Allah hears and can answer our prayer, we affirms His right to be worshipped
iii) Asma' wa sifat - when we say "O God, grant me such and such......", affirms that we have yaqin for his attributes that He can do anything.

2) TYPES of DU'A
In quran, dua used in 2 primary meanings:
a) Du'a ul mas'alah = dua of asking - ask Allah of something we want
b) Du'a ul ibadah = the call/ the plead/ the worship type
- e.g: solah, zikr etc.

-Du'a ul masalah intrinsically implies/ necessitate dua ul ibadah, meanwhile dua' ul ibadah is the logical consequence to dua' ul masalah
- eg:: Dua ul ibadah = praise Allah, then Dua' ul masalah = ask from Allah

c) TYPES of PEOPLE related to DUA UL IBADAH and DUA UL MASALAH
i - People who reject both: dua ul masalah and dua ul ibadah
- they don't worship Allah and never ask from Allah, e.g: atheist, communist. Against tauhid Rububiyyah and Uluhiyyah
iii- People who only make dua ul ibadah
- they make worship to Allah but never ask, e.g : Christians = worship Allah(God the Father), but when make dua ask from Jesus a.s >> This is shirk and kufr! Against Tauhid Uluhiyyah
iii - People who only make dua ul masalah, no dua ul ibadah
- they never pray, pay zakah and do things against the rule of Allah yet ask from Allah to
be rich, etc...when in need.
- Most muslims today are like this! Sad reality!
iv - Do both dua' : perfect combination of dua'.

2006-08-28T19:05:00.000-07:00

......bismillah.......

CORETAN , 21 Ogos 2006

Hidup yang bagaimanakah akan kau pilih?
Yang begini? Atau begitu?
Sudahkan kau fikirkan semasak-masaknya?
Akan pilihanmu in, kebaikan dan akibatnya?
Pilihlah yang terbaik
untukmu dunia dan akhirat
Sesungguhnya kau tidak berseorangan
dalam membuat pilihan ini
Hadapkan wajahmu ke arah qiblat
Dan tadahkan tanganmu
Mintalah petunjuk dariNya
Agar keputusanmu tidak dikesali kemudian hari
Mintalah petunjukNya
Walau sekecil manapun
keputusan yang bakal dibuat
Sesungguhnya Allah tidak pernah mengabaikanmu
Malahan sebaliknya,
manusia sentiasa lalai kepada Tuhannya!

Jgnlah diibaratkan seperti Iblis,
pabila Allah mengarahkannya hormat kepada Adam,
dia ingkar!
Tetapi sebaliknya apabila sudah dihalau oleh Allah dari syurga
bermohon doa kepada Allah
supaya diberi umur yg kekal
untuk menyesatkan anak Adam.

Wahai hamba Allah,
Be grateful and mindful of Allah!

signed,
bintNaim
Reflections on Dua'-weapon of the believer by Abu Ammar Yasir Qadhi and Inner Dimension of istikharah by Abdulbary Yahya

2006-07-31T21:57:00.000-07:00

The Khutbah Series: Eman Rush Zone
by : Muhammad Alshareef

- Battle of Uhud – muslims were killed – a message sent out saying that Rasulullah s.a.w was killed – some sahabah was really sad and some of the companions and stop fighting - Anas ibn ??? r.a didn’t stop and fight back for the death of Rasulullah s.a.w – His dua’ “Please forgive these people” - “O sa’ad ibn Muadh, I can smell the Jannah in Uhud” – So Anas fight like a machine – shahid and have 80 cuts no one know it was him except his siter.

- Allah is thayyib (good), Allah will not except anything except it is good (thru quran and sunnah)

- Allah tries the human so he will get the best out of the person – Because He only accept the best (thayyib)

- Allah tests us to make us stronger and stronger – Maybe for us the test is very big but in the sight of Allah is very small – There are more bigger tests of others in this world

- Tests of life make us stronger – If we can be patient immediately when we are tested – we will experience the sweetness in the heart that is more beloved to us than anything else – EMAN RUSH

- Eman rush = faith accelerated - in the zone - today, not the eman rush, just a rush – people of the old – their games are to fight for the sake of Allah

- Define to ourselves to create our eman rush – Why? - When angel of death comes, we must be in the eman rush – so we can say lailahaillallah - To get eman rush zone – we must practice - Practise to be in eman rush everyday – so that we can prepare ourselves for our death

- Eman can wear out – work on building our eman everyday – eman must be consistently in the zone again and again – ask Allah to renew our eman (dua’)

How to be in Eman rush zone?
- Stage 1 : Must be in the physical struggle – intense pain – Anas’s pain hearing the death of Rasulullah s.a.w
- Stage2: The letting go, step back. Anas letting go of dunya.
- Stage 3: The actual eman rush zone, people actually doing it. Anas fought like a machine
- Stage 4: come out of it, mind, and body change. we are in the highest state of eman

- Surah Al-muzammil – Qiamullail – work hard for qiamullail – not an easy task – stage 1 to wake up - stage 2 letting go by Allahu Akbar, start praying – stage 3 to be stronger in praying till the end

- The successful people are those who believe in the unseen – submit to Allah – to have Dunya and Akhirah

How to experience the eman rush zone
- i) Who? 1) Those who are completely away from Allah - at 1 point return to Allah 2) those who always practice – train the self to submit to Allah – completely submit to Allah!
- ii) Istikharah – do it regularly – any decision to be made ask Allah.
- iii)Visiting the sick
- iv) Zikrullah – the healing power of zikr – In the remembrance of Allah, do heart finds peace
- v) Leaving your work to pray in the masjid – solah with khusyu’ – do our best in the prayer
- vi) The khutbah in jumaah prayer – attend every jumaah ! to renew eman
- x) Whoever is please with Allah as their Lord, please with Islam as their religion and please with with Raulullah s.a.w as their messenger – Radhitu billahi rabba wabilislami dina wa bi muhammadin sallallahu alaihi wasallam wa nabiyya wa rasula

2006-07-25T20:48:00.000-07:00

Title: When Wolves become Shepherd

Speaker: Muhammad Alshareef

Introduction

The plot of the murder of Rasulullah s.a.w by the mushriqeen,- 13^th year after message of Islam was received- the mushriqeen gathered in Darun Nadwah- last man to join the meeting is shaytaan – 1^st suggestion to kill Rasulullah – Shaytaan, “No, if we jailed him then news will go to others and the Message will spread” – 2^nd suggest to expel him – Shaytan, “No, he will come back and stronger”- 3^rd suggestion to kill him, but not any Arab kill him but take one person from each tribe to kill him- Shaytaan “YES”. –

Bukhari & Muslim] A shepherd was out with his sheep. Then a wolf came and take away one of his sheep. The shepherd was mad and throws a mango to the wolf. Then the wolf turn back and talk to the shepherd,” What will happened when on the day when the wolves become Shepherds?” – Title of the lecture.

An interesting way to introduce Iblis:: Late night show with Jay Leno and celebrity guest is Iblees

Leno: What’s your name?

Iblees: Iblees, Despair

Leno : Do you have a last name?

Iblees : The Accursed One

Leno : I understand you used to work with God?

Iblees : Uhuh…I used to work with God in the company of God and angels

Leno : What’s your goal in life?

Iblees : To annihilate and condemn every son and daughters of Adam and Hawa and I will never leave them until they reach Hell-Fire. And I have thousands of years
of experience and over a trillion people were served to Hell-Fire

Leno: You look totally energetic, how old are you?

Iblees: I’m a little bit older than humanity’s father, Adam.

Leno: Do you have any weaknesses?

Iblees: You’ll find out in this lecture!!(Read the notes till the end =D)

War against Shaytaan

We are in a war against shaytaan, subtitle: Shaytaans' da’wah techniques.

Armies of iblees against us. Allah told us to fight the helper of shaytaan. Battlefields of this war – Marketplace is the battlefield of shaytaan – eg: malls, billboards, radios, television – What are they selling on TV? Us!

Shaytaan said, “By YOUR honor, I will misguide them (mankind) all! I will come to them from every direction. And YOU will find that most of them are not thankful.”And Allah said, “Shaytaan had spoken the truth.” – The junud of Shaytaan – how he pledge allegiance to Allah that he will misguide us all until all of us enter hell fire.

Ramadhan – doors to heaven are open – doors to hell are closed – shaytaan are chained down

In this war, 999/1000 of muslim will be in Hell Fire, only 1 will be saved by Allah

Men is Shaytaan ever motivated!- None can be saved from iblees’ commitment and determination except those who have ikhlas for Allah s.w.t - Shaytaan will never leave men even in a single second. – DON’T MAKE EXCUSES IN YOUR DEEN! – He’ll never leave us until he divided us with our families.

- Analogy of The Red Riding Hood – wolf dresses like grandma – like in the story, we can see the sign but can’t tell is it Shaytaan or not – but indeed it is Shaytaan who are trying to misguide us

The 7 steps of priority of Iblees’ to demolished the human

-every human being is on one of these levels:

1) Shirk and kufr to Allah – the person become part of Iblees

2) Bid’ah – Shaytaan will trick a person that what we are doing is right – e.g.: People of Nuh a.s – build idols for good people – generations after that worship the idols

3) Major sins – Shaytaan works the hardest on the scholar to commit the major sins - when the followers see this, they w ill do it. – Backbiting, Riba’

4) Minor sins – [Bukhari & Muslim] Beware of the sins that people belittle. Whenever the worker of the minor sins takes advantage of indulging themselves in the minor sins, it will destroy them.

5 ) Busied men with mubahah- things that permissible but not important – e.g.: watching and following the football games.-wasted their life and no benefit out of it.

6) Focusing on less impostant – fadhil wa mafdhul – virtuous and less virtuous – e.g.: focus on halal meat but do shirk, take riba’, have girlfriend

7) Raise hell from his army of human and devils to destroy you. –e.g Ummar Al-Khattaab r.a – assassinated by Abu Lu’lu wal Majusi- you will be tested like you never been tested before

Techniques of Shaytaan

1) It will make us thing is a harmless action

2) Take away the knowledgeable people

3) Switch things/actions to kufr and shirk

4) Outstanding debts – Martyrs won’t be forgiven of their debts – Debts must paid before you die – Riba’ is like raging war against Allah and His Messengers

5)Mind game – questioning of things – when getting to a point where we questioned the existence and attributes of Allah - Stop! Say A’uzubillah…

6)Shaytaan flips the haram into a nice and pretty thing – e.g rat on a sister’s lap, they’ll scream but the same sister in Disneyland take the rat hat and say its cute – e.g - plucking of the eyebrows the doer and those who do are cursed - follow the guidance of quran and sunnah, don’t use only your mind

7)Attacks the meaning of the quran – Shaytaan made men misunderstood of the meaning of the quran

8)Shaytaan wishpers on the heart of men that Islam is wrong, Islam is the devil

9)Extravagance is one of shaytaan’s technique - People that are wasteful are the brothers of the devil – When a rice fall, pick it and eat it, don’t leave it to Shaytaan – Eating to our full, make our heart rusted – Excessiveness will do it

10)Voice of Shaytaan is MUSIC! - When the lyrics are haram – the music in the radio are haram

-->Scientifically proven, doing a new thing - The first time you won’t like it that much - Second and third time it becomes a routine – In Islam: if a black dot are created in our heart (by committing sins), it won’t disappear unless we repent

SHAYTAAN NEVER WAITS – they started working from the day we born! – when a baby is born – they cries – Shaytaan pinched them – we need to say azan to the baby

We must fight Shaytaan from the beginning – say bismillah when starting doing something - everything must be for Allah

From the beginning of recitation – a’uzubillah – seek protection from Shaytaan – because Shaytaan never waits to misguide us

How to protect ourselves from Shaytaan:

O you who believe! Don’t follow the footsteps of Shaytaan. Shaytaan commands the evils and fahshaa’. (999/1000 will follow Shaytaan). If it wasn’t for the Fadhl and Mercy of Allah, none of you will be purified. – seek protection from Allah because HE will never leaves us alone.

1)Zikr of Allah s.w.t – Remember Allah all the time – he/she will be protected – [Tirmidzi] Abu Musa Al Ashaari r.a – Yahya a.s ,”And I command u to remember Allah, for verily the example of a person who does this is the example of a man who is hunted and chased by an enemy. So this person is running away from his enemy and there is no escape until he finds a fortified castle. So he’s running into the castle and then the gate is about to close. So he was in the castle and saved. This is the similitude of the slave of Allah when he remembers Allah.”

2)Iqamatus-salah – come regularly to the masjid – Verily the devil has lost hope in the worshipping HIM – Shaytaan doesn’t stop – they do masjid politics – it’s Shaytaans’ tricks – beware of what Shaytaan can do – don’t slander in masjid

3)Changing physiological state – say a’uzubillah, then turn to your left then spit 3 times – If angry, stand, sit, lay down and wudhu’

4)Istighfar – asking for forgiveness from Allah

5)Say a’uzubillah – if we cursed Shaytaan, they get stronger – if we read quran, seek Allah protections. – Do it often! A’uzubillahi minash shaytan irrajeem.

2006-07-25T20:15:00.000-07:00

The Khutbah Series : Written In Stone (Audio)
By :: Muhammad Alshareef

- The death of those who memorized the quran
• Musailimah Al-Khazzab (The Liar) claimed prophet-hood after the death of Rasulullah s.a.w.
• Abu Bakar sent battles against Musailimah. A lot of muslims died in the battle, most of them those who memorized the Quran because they know discipline of memorizing the Quran. They are on the frontline of the battle.
• Abu Bakar decided to compile the quran. So, it won’t be lost.

- Those who memorized quran, Allah raised his/her in rank in the community.
• Ummar Al-Khattab,“Indeed Allah will raise up the people of the quran”
• Also, there are people who were disgraced/put down because of Quran

- How to affectively memorize the Quran:
1) Be sincere when starting to learn memorizing Quran, and be sincere of the deen.
2) Avoid sins. “Abu Hanifah once cannot get the answer of fiqh question. He said, I cannot get the answer because of my sins. He get up and pray for taubah so Allah will forgive him and he can get the answer. After the prayer, he was happy because Allah has forgiven him and he get the answer. “
3) Characteristic of a hafidh: they have blessed parents. In a family that promotes Islam as the way of life.
- parents and children together in the Quran program.
- Dua’ of the parents are very important. Parents who are waking up at night in Qiamullail.
4) Fight against your excuses. Don’t make excuses. Work just as hard

-Tips:
1) Must have teachers. Don’t memorize alone or your friends. Must register in quran program.
2) Avoid distractions. No TV, radio, fun theme park. No distractions in life.
3) Memorizing through audio. Read louder so that you hear what you are reciting.Again and again so that it will be …… in your heart.
4) Location of the quran. Put the quran in front of your face not down while you are reciting and memorizing.
5) Eat brain food. Eat food that good for memorization. Anything else we eat must be halal and nutritious.
6) Person who is devoted to quran. “Recite and ascend in ranks in Paradise according to the verses that you read in Dunya.”

Conclusions: How many ranks will we be climbing or rather How many ranks we want to climb in Jannah?

2006-07-24T20:53:00.000-07:00

To all who are in need

by Shaihk Abdulbary Yahya

To all who are in need to Allah you should turn,

To all who are oppressed or have any concern,

Your Lord is always there in darkness or in light,

Ask for all your needs when you get up late at night,

Pour your heart out to him and ask with sincerity,

Ask him for wellbeing and for total prosperity,

My Lord I ask of you, to ease my worldly pains,

Relieve me of my problems that are tying me like chains,

I have none else but you to help me through it all,

I have none else but you, who will listen to my call,

So lonely I am sometimes a companion do I need,

To help keep me strong, so in both worlds I'll succeed,

My lord I am in debt my worries weighing me down,

Pull me from these problems before I really drown,

Have mercy upon my parents Oh Most Merciful and Most Gracious,

Forgive them of their sins and make their graves even more spacious,

You are the One who guides so show me of my way,

And keep me on the path and don't let me go astray,

I have none else but you, who will listen to all I say,

I have none else but you at night or in the day,

source::
http://www.islamicboard.com/islamic-multimedia/2763-poem-shiek-abdulbary-yahya.html

2006-07-24T19:34:00.000-07:00

Ten Sicknesses of The Heart

1. You believe in the existance of Allah Ta'ala, but you do not fulfil his commands.

2. You say you love the Holy Prophet Mohammed (Sallallahu 'alahi wasallam), but you do not follow his sunnah (ie, his example).

3. You Read The Qur'an but you do not put it into practice.

4. You enjoy all the benefits from Allah Ta'ala, but you are not grateful to him.

5. You acknowledge Shaytan as your enemy, but you do not go against him.

6. You want to enter paradise, but you do not work for it.

7. You do not want to be thrown into hell-fire, but you do not try to get away (ie, do good deeds).

8. You believe that every living-thing will face death, but you do not prepare for it.

9. You gossip and find faults in others, but you forgot your own faults and mistakes.

10. You bury the dead, but you do not take a lesson from it.

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